iI am nearly broke and by the end of the month--payday..I'll be broke again.haaay.
this month my salary will go to school tuition--800 n 250 for room rent/bills.
all that will be left,if there would be any will be for my bus fare n train fare.not to mention the hearthrobs ticket!!my landlady paid it for me so i need to pay her back.

God help me survive.

needs:

• clarks black wedge heels shoes..b4 £50 now 25(I may need it wen i attend the concert,our nsg home's xmas dinner and wen i finally decide to take my IELTS.)
• dress/suit of w/c i havnt found yet.that wud basically cover 3 events mentioned above n more
• money of course to buy all of it.or credit card of w/c m planning to apply for.hopfully dey'll accept it

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

last lecture

since i lost my phone..iI lost all the picx n numbers..more so I lost my recording of randy pausch's last lecture when he was still alive albeit terminal .It was just a small talk with oprah.I was deeply moved by it ..i had it ever since 2008..although it wasn;t supposed to be for me it was for his children..it is a legacy ..
I'll look for it sa net.i do hope i find it again.its about how to achieve ur childhood dreams.
-----never under estimate the importance of having fun..I am dying soon..but im havng fun..
decide if ur a tiggr,or an eeeyore..tiggrs r energetic n optimistic...
experience is wat u get if u dont get wat u want
brick walls are there for a reason:they show us how badly we want things.
no one is pure evil ..if u wait long enough they will show u their good side

wen u screw up,apolologize..say--im sorry.ti was my fault ,how do i make it ryt

realizations

I was seeing red with anger..I'm angry with myself for not being there.n for whoever did the IV and foley cath insertion to my lil bro..I twitterd it already so that's done.

1. I realized that i never did regret taking up nursing..I thought I did. about 4- 5 years now,I'm still lost.. I see myself torn between staying within the confines of the known, the comfortable and the convenient, and setting out in the cruel world with no clear destination appearing just yet. Im still on the same ground.Im not moving forwrd..which I should be


2. now,more than ever I am truly proud to be filipino..I miss everything..I hav'nt seen the whole world yet but nothing compares to home..i like the fb slogan i saw---from where I'm from,everbody is a hero ..or something like that..Nationalism is not so good here..


3. I badly need to save..Im almost a year working n studying but I hav'nt saved a penny..


4. I'm bored..haha.work is all physical..hence my uber bookreading..I miss the drama of real life..not pbb but hospital work..but i admit there's no place more dramatic than a hospital bed.be it sickness,birth or death...pedia will always be my first love..


5. I'm praying that God will help me save up so I could take a vacation to the philippines nx may..in time for the election.

wish i was there...

my brother ron...my pooor bro ron had an appendectomy wednesday morning...my uncle giov did the surgery..my uncle's friend uncle joseph did the anesthesia...(no pf)..
my bro had a fever today...but they found out it was just phlebitis...sa ivf site..anyways f all is well,,,no fever ...he'll be home tomorrow.
Thank God he's ok..it's just sad that he missed his agility test yesterday,but m happy because he is alive and can hav the test scheduled later on..
Sicut me Deus adjuvet
It's times like this that i do realize y i choose to be a nurse..y i like to be in the know.and be there every breath,heartbeat.

if i had been there i would hav the pleasure of inserting his iv,do his skin test,his pre op meds even be there with him inside the OR..I would hav been pouring alcohol to every hand coming to touch him hahaha.n ask did u wash ur hands.i admit m totally overly protective of my siblings.i may not say it often but i do love them deeply..all four of them

I got to do some for tweetums,just before i left.she had viral infection n was vomiting for ages..I will never forget that..I had a 11pm-7am duty then 3pm to 11pm n just wen i thot i wud b resting the night my father,my brother n me went to davao @haf past 11 on a rented van.i brought all needed meds ivf,cannula,syringes and arrived at 2am..with no sleep yet inserted Ivf @once n was asleep @quarter past..

Im planning to go home just in time for the elections..hopefully i will meet my goals.
^^

oooooooo wag na wag mong sasabihin..

I'm filled with joy as i watch the remake of LIP..making me remember the LIP.vivian,carlo n martin..
memories not only of the love story but of my life while I was watching the series...the endless classses n toxic duties..of brownouts and late night jeepney rides.of side walk balut,mais,burger machine and 11pm midnight meal of siomai supreme n rice.of classmates ,groupmates and school mates enduring the same kalisod and kalipay of studying to b a nurse..of the journey. ^^
like george's death in GA,it's like burying the past..the sweet sad past. and seeing,feeling it again somehow it wasn't as bad as I thought it was before.

yesterday

We're all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what's coming. It's pointless in the end, because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are.

I had a good day yesterday.i went to london with jade to meet up with nina,chacha and tingting..we were early so we decided to eat breakfast first and hav a look around.it was getting cold hence the frequent trips to the toilet..
i had just spoken to nina on the phone.she was telling me to keep my phone near so i cud hear it ringing(it was always d case EVER,me missing calls).i decided to put my phone on top a tissue dispenser inside the toilet ..and i had washed my hands,dried it and went outside before realizing i dont hav my fon..so there,i lost it.@half past 9 yesterday,my n7210 supernova,phone for almost 10 months with all i'ts memories and pics is forever gone.