OrangeSylph

2011-03-01T06:37:00.001-08:00

2011-03-01T06:31:00.000-08:00

11th hour

2011-02-24T00:09:00.000-08:00

It's the 11th hour.yesterday I have applied for passport renewal.my passport's validity was extended for the mean time.up to feb 2013,pic taken for biometrics.as usual..chaka hahah.

I printed the 43 page form last night. Stressed levels way high.and rob keeps popping in my mind..
Will fill it out today--Lord god, Guide me.

I ask for a chance..to apply the visa extension..no matter how slim..
Give me the chance to serve You well..and be a better me.
Thank You po ..

feb - ibig

2011-02-20T16:21:00.000-08:00

went to canterbury on feb 5,didnt see him week after that, dateless on v-day, itsu's on 15th..then fro-yo again tmrw..

Facing the gauntlet this week.Lord,help me.

Lord,Please continually bless my mama,papa,tootsie,ron,tweetums and mclaude health of both body and mind..

continue to guide me.Lord,Let me serve.

Lord help me survive.

AJA!

getting better I hope

2011-01-29T16:05:00.000-08:00

lost 33 hrs dis week..nevermind.
back to work tomorrow.

money is in--mama's padala and my salary.Thank God.so the waiting starts.more praying too.AJA!

Met him friday night @goodge street tube station ,proceeded to Josephine's filipino resto
we shared a botttle of red horse n san mig light..then starters lumpia shanhai n fresh lumpia.
he had chicken adobo while I had the pork sisig(which looked n tasted like kilawin)
kalamansi juice and plain rice..then he had leche flan ,I had maja blanca.

I offered to share the bill but he insisted to pay for it..malaki yata seeing from the tener he took out.
then went home together till embankment.he's taking the bakerloo line while I had to go to victoria to get a train back to maidstone..I texted him p to beware of the kick ng redhorse.turns out ako ang nasipa.fell asleep on train ,missed my stop haha! woke up in bearsted and turns out no taxi waiting.no tao ata all! tried ringing taxi but nobody's picking up..the next train back to maidstone will be at 5 in the morning pa,not to mention it's freezing cold..I was stuporous on the train but man I am awake, coherent n responsive now.hahaha
had to call ate yvon,thankfully she picked up.asked her to wake up kuya,asked kuya to fetch me..really scary and cold.
all because of redhorse on an empty tummy.my bad.hahha.

home safe and lived to love another day.Thank God

back to work tomorrow.talked to jade on skype..

10:9 not bad compared to 20:2 hahaha

Hoping and praying for Love,Guidance and Courage.

new life begins today

2011-01-27T00:37:00.000-08:00

Jade has left yesterday=((
havent call back in..lost 17 hours already.and counting..
Asked him out ,gonna meet him today.for the last time.I can feel that he's already gone too far for me to reach..I hope I can move on because delay is one of my not so good habits.I want to stay here.still.and do what I'm destined to do..So help me God.

The money has been sent but hasnt entered my account yet.so I'm in trouble.

Jesus Christ,I Trust in You..kaw na bahala today Lord.Your will be done.

*^_^*

livin on a prayer

2011-01-22T15:07:00.000-08:00

Still in England,Thank God!

unscathed..but had to reduce my hours when school starts..need to find new rackets.

the date went ok.went to Don vincenzo again..He had spaghetti while I had Prosciutti crudo which is ham n cheese pizza..too big though.had to force him to eat half heheh.Had a drink @ Two Brewers just in front ..He had half pint spit fire,and another half pint of another beer.I had 2 half pints of guinness..

zdrasti

2011-01-18T08:10:00.000-08:00

Baozi Inn, O'neill's, frankit & benny's,Don vincenzo's, The Atrium, rochester pub, Young cheng,Little italian resto in camden,Itsu's,Waxy's--

goodbye?

tomorrow, God forbid I'm gonna be sent home to pinas.

Praying for a chance to try again..Big time !
I always loose sight of the big picture. I failed again. forgive me.
I think I'm in love and my dreams are gonna be crushed tomorrow.

shall I say goodbye? Is this really the end?friends and no spark but totally hooked hahaha.bad romance!

Salamat sa lahat.
Jesus Christ ,Hari ng awa,Kami ay nananalig sa Iyo.

I passed

2011-01-06T14:42:00.000-08:00

amazing,disbelief jud..

band 7.5
listening 8.0
reading 7.0
writing 7.5
speaking 7.0

Thank God! ^^

hopefully mka extend ko. ^^

fast forward

2011-01-04T03:49:00.000-08:00

4 dates after,3 hugs,2 half pints of kent brew,1 pint of guinness and a jug of cosmo ---i dunno If there 'll ever b another one..I think he got upset,or worse...**

my dreaded exam results tomorrow..funny thing is I'm not worried.at all ..or at least think I'm not..but I am about to make a big mess of what bedlam it already is ..

It would have been helpful If I can google how he feels about me so I can get it done and be over it.

and google my exam result so I can know what's the next step===whether kill myself to death working or wallow in misery and agony..

God help me.

this year, I plan to jumpstart my career.grow my hair long,travel more,live more..circulate and take responsibility for my life..

Sicut me DSeus Adjuvet

love actually

2010-12-12T04:22:00.000-08:00

Finally decided to push through extension..no money yet though but already enrolled,finally taking IELTS on saturday( havent reviewed yet.) We'll be staying at toms for our in depth review..

ALL this with fever,dry cough and runny nose.not to mention headache.

will be back to work tomorrow (been off sick --again!)
off on tuesday for the staff christmas party @wetherspoons.
early on wednesday,
Thursd8 with robert.
^^
exam then Filipino association christmas party,then baby maxine's baptism.whew.
then CHRISTMAS na!!

soon

2010-10-12T14:08:00.000-07:00

to mrs.w Thank you for giving me that time to care for you on ur final hours..Hours and minutes I wasn't able to give to my own grandmothers on their dying beds..Salamat guid.

THINGS ARE PICKING UP.finally after months of feeling lost, I Think I'm ready to take the next step now. Need to save first to back up my plans-to-be whatever they maybe.hence the 8-2,8-8,2-8 duty today n yesterday..pamugas na gid kay naglukdo nko sako n a haf heheh (85kg)

By the way,I went to visit Edinburgh on my birthday,well sept18-sept 19..I definitely need to come back there k ma braveheart pko hehe..I got sick that day and twas pouring hard so the eejit me just went home.

I'm good with doing things people least expect me to do..like my midterm 69 that turn into 95 on pre finals..maayo na lng pag release grades wala nkabutang prelim,midterm,pre fi or finals..final grade lng ..whew
So now I want to do that again..Nursing and I ,we were separated but not apart..and definitely together again and for always.

Ielts on nov 20..visa expiry feb 2011..
soon enough I will decide.

More than ever,I miss my family..
ron's doing well in training..lost weight aparently..I pray that he remains healthy.
tootsie's busy running the house er.. working ( he feels like an only child nowadays kay xa lng wid mama n papa at the mo)
tweetums,she's nearly done training er college..I pray that she remains healthy body and mind.
mclaude,mylil bro,hus doing good btw DL xa..I pray that he will take heed what we are telling him.

mama n papa ..going strong..I always pray for their continual health

me?I just wish I could make a decision soon.I pray for God's guidance.

that's all for now..I think.
not very chatty today are we? ^^

2010-08-24T14:00:00.001-07:00

Sat, 21 August, 2010 2:56:49

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From:	thea bates ... View Contact
To:	toddlern21@yahoo.com

Dearest tatay,
I have written thousands of letters in my mind but this will be one of the few in paper.
When I came in England,I thought I would lose myself.But I’ve never been more proud and sure of myself and my culture.Things are different around here,things change a lot faster.
I have also been able to realize I have been running away  ,hiding from the life I never planned on.
You see tay, I have planned things until graduation.  after that I didn’t know what to do. The real world is  filled with cruel realities, that and the responsibility of living my life for myself and in service of other’s lives got so daunting and so overwhelming  I chose to quit..I was an idealist, a dreamer confronted with the brutal truth that people die, everyday..no matter how hard I manually pump their chests to bring them to life, sometimes they still die. And that I have to live with it.
I am afraid to live life. thinking of things that may happen. I already wasted 5 years running away from something I do good in—nursing. 
I realized I am depriving myself—going for the safe and not living my life entirely.
Nanay would be glad I am away, she knew I needed to learn to walk on my own without using my family as a crutch but as an inspiration to get on and face the gauntlet.
I remember when I told her I was going---she said, mangadi ka gid pirmi ha..
I am blessed to have her as my grandma the longest, But I think you out win us all as you have spent a lifetime with her.
I regret that I wasn’t able to be there to say goodbye.
We all loved her and she loved us back.. It was more than enough
Although I t was a long time ago, I am happy that she gave me the privilege to care for her when she wasn’t well and when she was strong and agile shopping in the busy streets of davao, buying those orchids and letting me carry the huge box they were put in to..
  
On my last phone call to her, I enquired how she was on oxygen—She said don’t worry,I’ll still be here when you get back..
 But I would rather have lost her knowing we all loved her,cherish and appreciate what She gave us more than the cooked food,the suhol or the clothes—her heart.her love and her life.
I still don’t know what to do. or what lies ahead. I guess nobody does..
I got here. In the proverbial bridge  and I don’t know how to cross it yet.
  
 rhea 

2010-07-17T15:07:00.001-07:00

I thank God for giving me the opportunity to care for both of you when you weren't well..sorry I couldn't say goodbye yet..Ill still look forward to the weekends when I raid ur kusina or ur pedicure sundays..those lazy sundays sa ledesma--of reading newspaper,each of us on a different section..nanay would always have the one I want to read,so I have to read boring stuff first--like the front page,or the opinion section..be it philstar,malaya or pdi.the countless humba,adobo and kambing!for understanding that wen and madi are the only ilocano words i truly understand.hahaha.salamat sa sleepovers ko before..sleeping with tatay's huragok and the my wobbly tooth.regards nlang ko k tatay nay.
salamat nanay mencing,salamat nanay charing...^^

:"""(

2010-07-16T13:37:00.000-07:00

I cant even cry.
I am now grandmotherless .losing my nanay mencing 2 and half weeks ago,now my nanay charing naman.
two great women in my life.the mothers of my parents..
It got me thinking...do I regret leaving ?
I didn't realize that that afternoon of november 26th of 2008 was the last time I was gonna see them alive. It was when i was on the way to the van terminal for davao.2 days before I left for the UK.

I feel numb.

I could really use a wish right now

2010-07-09T13:36:00.000-07:00

june--was the hardest month I ever had to endure..my best friend got sick..i watched movies like 10 times in the cinema!!
then june 25th as I woke up,I checked my facebook thru my fon..there was a msg from apple (my cousin) saying---ate yang,wala na c nanay.
I denied for as long as i can.praying and telling nanay that just for that day,let me think everything was well and she hasn't left us.
My heart is broken.to smithereens.I loved Nanay so much..I just wished I showed her more..
She loved us all,every single one of us..all nanay's boy and nana's girls..(23 granchildren,10 children)
I wish I made it home last May....:""""(

GLEE

2010-01-11T16:43:00.000-08:00

:Something has changed within me Something is not the sameI'm through with playing by the rulesOf someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll tryDefying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

I'm through accepting limits'
Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buyDefying gravity
Kiss me goodbyeI'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down:(

2010

2010-01-09T13:33:00.000-08:00

May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you are wonderful. And don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the new year, you surprise yourself. — Neil Gaiman

Firsts:

First big freeze.the worst winter in UK in 30 years.as of today on my part of the country it's -6..in Nina's it's -11.in scotland it's -21..not to mention snow falling non stop.

I am already 25 years old and will be turning a year older in about 9 months time.
I want to save money for the future.I want to read more books.I want to go visit places.I want to find what it is I'm still looking for..

My 2000's in a nut shell:graduated high school,transferred to davao started college,met new friends,graduated ,passed board exams,failed cgfns,quit first job after 5 months,had chikenpox, been a slacker for a year,trained @DMC,finally worked in my hometown,got visa for Uk.worked and still working as carer and studying at the same time.met new people from different parts of the world *_~

Sicut me Deus adjuvet

got bitten by the BUG

2009-12-29T23:47:00.000-08:00

stomach bug aka viral infectious AGE has finally got me.
My residents had it since monday last week,hence the barrier nursing.but it wasn't strictly followed.i guess my co workers really dont know much about controlling infection.most of the staff had got it last wk.I didn't.
I follwed strict rules of washing my hands,changing clothes,shoes,and having a bath before coming in my room or the kitchen.
sadly,as the residents upstairs(where it all started) was getting better,the downstairs people has just got it monday afternoon when I came in.
i felt nauseous already by 5 pm.by the time i got home i felt really ill.didn't bother eating,just went to bed with tummy ache.then @ 4am it woke me up.diarrhea and vomitting ensue.up until 3 am this morning.I hope I'll be better tomorrow,been off sick for 2 days now.I got a lot of things to do.cleaning,laundry,ironing,stock up supplies coz it's gonna be New year..

In memoriam: Mr. D K died last wednesday,Amidst the bug that everybody else had except him.Goddbye mate.have a goodnight ~_^ It happened so soon and I had not said my goodbye,you see I was downstairs that day and wasn't permitted to go up ..
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

2009-12-21T16:21:00.000-08:00

2009-12-21T16:05:00.001-08:00

it's snowtym!

2009-12-21T15:58:00.000-08:00

2009-12-21T15:54:00.000-08:00

jasper my playmate

2009-12-21T15:52:00.000-08:00

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2009-12-21T15:44:00.000-08:00

book back log

2009-12-21T15:34:00.000-08:00

my year in books,take aways and shit

2009-12-02T11:23:00.000-08:00

my year in books...has been a good year...I've been in england for a year and 3 days now and I can say that I've never had so many book in my entire life..must be 500 now.haha.Most of them are mills and boon romances,a couple of johanna lindsey's,paulo coehlo,jude devereaux,sophie kinsella,dan brown,stephanie meyer,iris johansen,julie garwood,nicholas sparks...I got the brokeback mountain as well.hahaha.
wala cguro araw since that i didnt buy a book..
take aways..and eat ins haha kfc,burger king,mcdo,chinese,indian,mexican,krispy kreme,millie's
shits ..same shit,different day..all shapes,sizes,texture,consistency,frequency,duration and odour...haha and o, i forgot to mention the location...on the floor,wall,bed,on the nails,mouth ...

lessons do arrive,and this time, i think I'm ready to move on..I got nothing to lose because i dont have anything really..lesson number 1---save,save,save

close encounters with sam,piolo,bea,pokwang and LLOYDIE!!!!!!!!

2009-11-09T02:58:00.000-08:00

never mind m paper white due to the bryt flash..m with my ate bing..my laovely landlady who's celebrating her birthday..hearthrobs london was such an experience..especially on the way there.doors open @4pm(it's quite dark already,n bloody cold) show star @5pm.
we were driving round n round central london looking for a parking space,then when we finally get there the man pointed us to the wrong direction so instead we were going farther n farther a way then finally we got there..quater past 6 i think.my bladder about to explode.hahaha
n the show already started but without the main event yet..just starters .i've never seen so much pinoys gathered in uk b4..then they shoed the abs christmas station Id...then powkie,sam,bea,lloydie n piolo.
and i love lloydie more.he's witty n funny..throwing punchline with subtlety ...

2009-10-24T10:22:00.000-07:00

iI am nearly broke and by the end of the month--payday..I'll be broke again.haaay.
this month my salary will go to school tuition--800 n 250 for room rent/bills.
all that will be left,if there would be any will be for my bus fare n train fare.not to mention the hearthrobs ticket!!my landlady paid it for me so i need to pay her back.

God help me survive.

needs:

clarks black wedge heels shoes..b4 £50 now 25(I may need it wen i attend the concert,our nsg home's xmas dinner and wen i finally decide to take my IELTS.)
dress/suit of w/c i havnt found yet.that wud basically cover 3 events mentioned above n more
money of course to buy all of it.or credit card of w/c m planning to apply for.hopfully dey'll accept it

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

last lecture

2009-10-18T11:04:00.000-07:00

since i lost my phone..iI lost all the picx n numbers..more so I lost my recording of randy pausch's last lecture when he was still alive albeit terminal .It was just a small talk with oprah.I was deeply moved by it ..i had it ever since 2008..although it wasn;t supposed to be for me it was for his children..it is a legacy ..
I'll look for it sa net.i do hope i find it again.its about how to achieve ur childhood dreams.
-----never under estimate the importance of having fun..I am dying soon..but im havng fun..
decide if ur a tiggr,or an eeeyore..tiggrs r energetic n optimistic...
experience is wat u get if u dont get wat u want
brick walls are there for a reason:they show us how badly we want things.
no one is pure evil ..if u wait long enough they will show u their good side

wen u screw up,apolologize..say--im sorry.ti was my fault ,how do i make it ryt

realizations

2009-10-18T10:42:00.000-07:00

I was seeing red with anger..I'm angry with myself for not being there.n for whoever did the IV and foley cath insertion to my lil bro..I twitterd it already so that's done.

I realized that i never did regret taking up nursing..I thought I did. about 4- 5 years now,I'm still lost.. I see myself torn between staying within the confines of the known, the comfortable and the convenient, and setting out in the cruel world with no clear destination appearing just yet. Im still on the same ground.Im not moving forwrd..which I should be

now,more than ever I am truly proud to be filipino..I miss everything..I hav'nt seen the whole world yet but nothing compares to home..i like the fb slogan i saw---from where I'm from,everbody is a hero ..or something like that..Nationalism is not so good here..

I badly need to save..Im almost a year working n studying but I hav'nt saved a penny..

I'm bored..haha.work is all physical..hence my uber bookreading..I miss the drama of real life..not pbb but hospital work..but i admit there's no place more dramatic than a hospital bed.be it sickness,birth or death...pedia will always be my first love..

I'm praying that God will help me save up so I could take a vacation to the philippines nx may..in time for the election.

wish i was there...

2009-10-09T13:58:00.000-07:00

my brother ron...my pooor bro ron had an appendectomy wednesday morning...my uncle giov did the surgery..my uncle's friend uncle joseph did the anesthesia...(no pf)..
my bro had a fever today...but they found out it was just phlebitis...sa ivf site..anyways f all is well,,,no fever ...he'll be home tomorrow.
Thank God he's ok..it's just sad that he missed his agility test yesterday,but m happy because he is alive and can hav the test scheduled later on..
Sicut me Deus adjuvet
It's times like this that i do realize y i choose to be a nurse..y i like to be in the know.and be there every breath,heartbeat.

if i had been there i would hav the pleasure of inserting his iv,do his skin test,his pre op meds even be there with him inside the OR..I would hav been pouring alcohol to every hand coming to touch him hahaha.n ask did u wash ur hands.i admit m totally overly protective of my siblings.i may not say it often but i do love them deeply..all four of them

I got to do some for tweetums,just before i left.she had viral infection n was vomiting for ages..I will never forget that..I had a 11pm-7am duty then 3pm to 11pm n just wen i thot i wud b resting the night my father,my brother n me went to davao @haf past 11 on a rented van.i brought all needed meds ivf,cannula,syringes and arrived at 2am..with no sleep yet inserted Ivf @once n was asleep @quarter past..

Im planning to go home just in time for the elections..hopefully i will meet my goals.
^^

oooooooo wag na wag mong sasabihin..

2009-10-03T04:56:00.000-07:00

I'm filled with joy as i watch the remake of LIP..making me remember the LIP.vivian,carlo n martin..
memories not only of the love story but of my life while I was watching the series...the endless classses n toxic duties..of brownouts and late night jeepney rides.of side walk balut,mais,burger machine and 11pm midnight meal of siomai supreme n rice.of classmates ,groupmates and school mates enduring the same kalisod and kalipay of studying to b a nurse..of the journey. ^^
like george's death in GA,it's like burying the past..the sweet sad past. and seeing,feeling it again somehow it wasn't as bad as I thought it was before.

yesterday

2009-10-02T10:20:00.000-07:00

We're all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what's coming. It's pointless in the end, because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are.

I had a good day yesterday.i went to london with jade to meet up with nina,chacha and tingting..we were early so we decided to eat breakfast first and hav a look around.it was getting cold hence the frequent trips to the toilet..
i had just spoken to nina on the phone.she was telling me to keep my phone near so i cud hear it ringing(it was always d case EVER,me missing calls).i decided to put my phone on top a tissue dispenser inside the toilet ..and i had washed my hands,dried it and went outside before realizing i dont hav my fon..so there,i lost it.@half past 9 yesterday,my n7210 supernova,phone for almost 10 months with all i'ts memories and pics is forever gone.

soo george

2009-09-28T13:26:00.000-07:00

I fell in love with George, like many of you did. because his love for Meredith ; because, like Izzie, George led with his heart.
He was impulsive, big-hearted,with selflessness that had him jump in front of a moving bus to save a life. It’s heartbreaking.
He was brave and noble, like Owen said. miranda even named her son after him--after that vagay-gay moment.
and he did his best.

good mourning,goodbye

2009-09-28T09:17:00.000-07:00

after 3 months of agonizing wether george or izzie is gonna die...here comes the new season of my favorite grey's anatomy...
george died,he became brain dead.izzie pulled through albeit still having cancer..huhuh.
i soo loved georgie..

2009-09-20T13:38:00.000-07:00

25

2009-09-19T03:22:00.000-07:00

25 (twenty-five) is the natural number following 24 and preceding 26.
The atomic number of manganese
It is a square number, being 5² = 5 × 5. It is the smallest square that is also a sum of two squares: 25 = 3² + 4². Hence it often appears in demonstrations of the Pythagorean theorem.
25 is a centered octagonal number and an automorphic number.
25 has an aliquot sum of 6 and is the first number to have an aliquot sequence that does not culminate in 0 through a prime. Twenty-five is the aliquot sum of three integers; 95, 119, and 143. Twenty-five is the second composite member of the 6-aliquot tree.
It is the smallest base 10 Friedman number as it can be expressed by its own numbers: 5².
It is also a Cullen number. 25 is the smallest pseudoprime satisfying the congruence 7n = 7 mod n. It is also a Somer pseudoprime based on 6.
25 is the smallest aspiring number — a composite non-sociable number whose aliquot sequence does not terminate.
According to the Shapiro inequality 25 is the least odd integer n such that there exist such that

where xn + 1 = x1,xn + 2 = x2.
Within base 10 one can readily test for divisibility by 25 by seeing if the last two digits of the number match 25, 50, 75 or 00.
25 and 49 are the only perfect squares in the following list:
13,25,37,49,511,613,715,817,919,1021,1123,1225,1327,1429...etc
The formula in this list can be described as 10n * Z + (2Z + 1) where n clearly depends on the number of digits in Z and in 2z+1.

The atomic number of manganese

In Ezekiel's vision of a new temple: The number twenty-five is of cardinal importance in Ezekiel's Temple Vision (in the Bible, Ezekiel chapters 40-48).

The size of the full roster on a major league baseball team
The number of points needed to win a set in volleyball under rally scoring rules (except for the fifth set), so long as the losing team's score is two less than the winning team's score (i.e., if the winning team scores 25 points, the losing team can have no more than 23 points)

Twenty five is:
The number of years of marriage marked in a silver wedding anniversary.
The minimum age of candidates for election to the United States House of Representatives. "Under 25" provides a common cut-off point for designating youth.
The number of cents in a quarter.
The usual TCP port for SMTP.
The designation of United States Interstate 25, a freeway that runs from New Mexico to Wyoming
The designation of the M25 London Orbital motorway
Municipal Okrug 25, a municipal okrug of Kirovsky District of Saint Petersburg, Russia
The (critical) number of Florida electoral votes for the 2000 U.S. presidential election
The name of the national card game of Ireland and India (Pachisi — Hindi for 25)
"25", a song by Veruca Salt from their 1994 album American Thighs
"25th Floor", a song by Patti Smith Group from their 1978 album Easter
Twenty Five is the name of a 2006 George Michael compilation celebrating 25 years in the music business (1981-2006)
"25 boy", in Cantonese Chinese, is a slang term meaning "traitor" as used in the Chinese movie Over the Edge.
The per-second frame rate of the PAL video standard
The number of the French department Doubs
25 random things about me, an Internet meme utilizing Facebook's Notes feature

Pony (British slang for £25)

having difficulty eating...!

2009-09-07T14:36:00.000-07:00

caffeine fix

2009-09-07T14:33:00.000-07:00

2nd cuppa to wake me up.3 hours sleep.1 hr in transit ^^

2 of my favorite things.

2009-09-07T14:31:00.002-07:00

talong is the life n rambutan...^^

do u think he is gay? ^^

2009-09-07T14:31:00.001-07:00

autumn

2009-09-07T14:29:00.001-07:00

September means sespene party!

2009-09-05T12:48:00.000-07:00

“Don’t let go too soon, but don’t hang on long.” --
Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom

SEPTEMBER 5th...it's my little brother's birthday today.my mclaude.don't tell anybody but he's my favorite sibling.he's been like a baby to me.still is..we share the penchant of reading books.newspapers or even shampoo bottles..

6th--it's my lolo paeng n lola mencing's wedding anniv..they have been together for more than 50 years..10 children n 26 granchildren n a grandchild..

8th--It's Mama Mary's birthday...

15th--my untie boots' bday

19th-- my b day n sweet's tooooooo

21st---my papa n mama's 26th wedding anniv

23rd--my mama's bday

26th--auntie dinah's bday

27th--papa's bday

disenchanted

2009-09-02T13:57:00.000-07:00

I don't remember wat got me into nursing.I recall my NSAT /CSAT results- course chosen:undecided. All i cared that time was how easy i'ts gonna be because it wont involve mathematics..or so I thought..and ever since I was a child, I loved baby sitting.my brothers n my cousins.I was even able to go to Cebu one summer because of it..
I said I would try nursing.
If I fail then its not meant for me.ther were times I felt and wished I would but It never came.
semesters and summers had gone and passed I'm still a BSN student.
amidst the vigorous training..rd's,toxic duties and c.i's....countless c.p.'s and thesis defense..and the next to impossible cases completion.april came and I was able to go up the podium n be proclaimed a graduate.on to the next hurdle.
the NLE.which by God's grace I passed.then came the employment--unemployment--training-employment==

one of my favorite movies was braveheart. and It was my childhood dream to come and visit london and scotland.mainly to see men in their kilts.especially royalty

and I was able to come visit england--london every thursdays.I hav'nt been to scotland yet but had seen a man in his kilt abd he didn't smell good.hahaha

next plan is to become a nurse in here.hopefully a pediatric nurse..how or when I don't know.yet.

I believe Iam Paulo Coelho’s shepherd Santiago, in search of my personal legend while the whole universe is conspiring with me to achieve my dream
Through the years, I have come to believe that part of the magic emanates from my I-want-to-be-this-to-hell-with-the-consequences attitude. I admit I am stubborn that way, but that is how I learned to believe in myself and in what I do. And it works! I know what I want and I am unbelievably getting to it.I have chosen to be a nurse; the only thing left for me to do is to understand my choice.

p.s.

goodluck to me ^^
EMI NURSING: i don't love you,like i did ..yesterday.

i love this song...its close fight between lenka n yael naim's nu soul...

2009-08-24T15:18:00.001-07:00

I'm just a little bitcaught in the middleLife is a mazeand love is a riddleI don't know where to goI can't do it alone(I've tried)and I don't know why
Slow it downmake it stopor else my heart is going to pop'cuz it's too muchYeah, it's a lotto be something I'm not
I'm a foolout of love'cuz I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bitcaught in the middleLife is a mazeand love is a riddleI don't know where to goI can't do it alone(I've tried)and I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the momentI'm so scaredbut don't show itI can't figure it outit's bringing me down I knowI've got to let it goand just enjoy the show
The sun is hotin the skyjust like a giant spotlightThe people follow the signand synchronize in timeIt's a jokeNobody knowsthey've got a ticket to that showYeah
I'm just a little bitcaught in the middleLife is a mazeand love is a riddleI dont know where to goI can't do it alone(I've tried)and I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the momentI'm so scaredbut don't show itI can't figure it outit's bringing me down I knowI've got to let it goand just enjoy the show
oh ohJust enjoy the showoh oh
I'm just a little bitcaught in the middlelife is a mazeand love is a riddleI dont know where to goI can't do it alone(I've tried)and I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the momentI'm so scaredbut I don't show itI can't figure it outit's bringing me down I knowI've got to let it goand just enjoy the show
dum de dumdudum de dum
Just enjoy the show
dum de dumdudum de dum
Just enjoy the show
I want my money backI want my money backI want my money backJust enjoy the show
I want my money backI want my money backI want my money backJust enjoy the show

taralets

2009-08-18T11:52:00.000-07:00

sugod, magpakailanman, superhero ,gising,noypi,halleluyah

i love filipino music..I'm a rocksteddy fan...got the chance to see them up close..i sat behind them on the plane to gensan and behind them as well sa check in..pati na sa arrivals baggage claim..even got a picture with them,but twas with my uncle's collegue employee's camera..

songs do bring back memories...
memories..they are strong.and time can never take them away..but dementia n alzheimer's could..

memories-like my first month as a pedia nurse in 2006..

self actualizations comes up..about my career.it's joys and sorrows..

I am turning 25.I ought to be better than myself .I am still not.

first day high

2009-08-12T14:45:00.000-07:00

tomorrow's my first day of class..
this morning i had been on a seminar...concepts of mental health..simplified version.
I'm glad i still remember psychia..got to answer most of rob's(our regional manager)questions.
even when i wasn't too sure.
well everyone in the room was astonished to know that I'm scared of earthworms...well any kind of worms.flatworms,tapeworms...

i need to wake up earlier than usual to catch my train..and im still awed by the london victoria(train station).i mean it's like a movie scene really..people rushing,moving,walking,running so fast..its a rat race!
especially in the underground train...the funny part is sometyms well,most times we dont know what train to take or which platform to go to untill we arrive at the next station..like coehlo had said---follw the signs *^^*
or,follow the arrows
but the rush hour...4-5pm OMG rush hour jud.u really have to like make bantay a spot sa platform,,,mind the gap though n be ready once the doors open...
n wen u arrive in the main station pauli..the screen wont say which platform until like 5 mins b4 depature so b quick to look up n run..

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

neither trumpets nor drums

2009-08-12T14:32:00.000-07:00

this is my own elegy for nanay cory.

nanay cory was God's gift to the Philippines..She doesn't even know me..but i know her and her indomitable spirit.She was an epitome of sincerity and honesty..and deep faith In God.
She was,in a way a mother to me.and will always be one of the reasons y i'll always be proud to be a Filipino...She taught me love of country like the late francis m..

I promise to continue telling her story so that filipinos of the next generation will know her n will never forget her..
to nanay cory....i'll tie a yellow ribbon round the old oak tree...
Thank you very much
Goodbye.

one good person--conrado de quiros

2009-08-05T15:47:00.000-07:00

I’VE written a good many things about Cory this past couple of weeks. I guess it’s time I got a little more personal.
I wasn’t an ardent fan of Cory at the beginning, I was an ardent critic. I came from the ranks of the red rather than the yellow, and looked at the world from the prism of that color. It got so that in one program Kris Aquino invited me to (I don’t know if she remembers this), she took me to task for it. It was an Independence Day show, and during one break, Kris turned to me and said: “Why are you so mean to my mom?”
I was, to put it mildly, taken aback. It’s not easy finding a clever answer to an accusation like that put with breathtaking candor. I just flashed what I thought would be a disarming smile. I don’t know if it disarmed.
What can I say? Maybe I’m just naturally mean. Or maybe I just say what I mean and mean what I say.
Years later, when the world had turned, and not for the better, I got an unexpected phone call. Cory was at the other end, which awed me. She said she was calling just to express her appreciation for something I had written about her. I do not now recall what it was. What I recall was mumbling something about not being the best person to say those things in light of what I had been saying before. She said that wasn’t true: I was the best person to say those things because of what I had been saying before.
I appreciated the appreciation.
Still years later, I would have cause to appreciate yet one more thing. That was February this year when, from out of the blue, Cory visited at the wake of my mother. I did not bother to ask, “Why are you so kind to my mom?” I knew by then it was her nature to be so.
She stayed for about an hour, and did much of the talking. Boy, could she talk! I didn’t know that before. But I’ve always been a good listener. She talked, I listened. What we talked about is best left for another time. But afterward, I thought: What strange directions life takes. What strange forks, detours, and crossings life takes.
I’ve seen activists who began by serving the people, or exhorting the world to, end up serving only themselves. And I’ve seen students who thought only of saving their families end up saving the world, or trying to. I’ve seen the best and the brightest turn only into the worst and greediest. And I’ve seen someone who was walang alam, or who was made out to be so, teach the world a thing or two about honor and courage and grace.
Maybe it’s not so strange that people who start out being enemies on grounds of principle end up being friends on those same grounds. And people who start out being friends without principle end up being enemies on that same ground.
I wondered, like someone who had come back to where he started and saw the place for the first time: Maybe colors are there to unite us more than separate us. Maybe red is just the blood that pulses in the veins in love and war. Maybe yellow is just the pages of a letter from a loved one that magically bring him back to life. Maybe blue is just the sky, however cloudy, when looked at through the bars of a prison cell. Maybe green is just fields promising plenitude. Maybe black is just the tangle of our fate, the twists and turns of our life, as we grope our way forward. Maybe white is just the grace to push on, amid the darkness.
I wondered with the wisdom of innocence and the naivete of age: Maybe we’re divided only into good people and bad people. How people are so, or become so, I’ll leave others to divine. Maybe they are just born that way, maybe like scorpions they sting because it is in their nature to sting. Or maybe they are made that way, as much by the circumstances that mold their character as their character that molds their circumstances. But bad people are there; we know that only too well. Just as well, good people are there too; we know that even more so.
We know the latter because we had someone walk with us who was so. Someone who was so disinterested in power she accepted it gravely as a matter of duty and gave it up gracefully as a matter of trust, for which she remains an awesome force even in death. Someone who, while she lived, showered not very small kindnesses on others in their hour of need or bereavement, having known bereavement herself and the comfort of empathy as much as the empathy of comfort, for which she continues to live with us even in death. Someone who proved once before as Joan of Arc and who will prove once again like El Cid the terrifying and wondrously prophetic vision of her faith: The exalted shall be humbled and the humble exalted.
In life and in death, Cory has been—pardon my French—one damn good person.
Good persons of the world, unite. You have nothing to lose but your bane.
* * *
Malacañang’s decision to declare today a holiday has nothing to do with commiserating with those who have lost a loved one, which is the whole nation. It has everything to do with preventing the explosion of love for Cory from becoming an explosion of fury at the opposite of Cory, who isn’t just Ferdie. Be there at the funeral procession today. Be there to keep Cory alive. Be there to bury tyranny in a deep dark grave.

ah.basta

2009-07-14T13:29:00.000-07:00

i'm terrified .
I'M WORKING TOMORROW MORNING.AND TOMORROW NYT AS WELL.I'll try my best to get some Zzzzz .
hopefully they put me n clare together...
cheese and rice...sunshine and lollipops.

I easily get tired of doing the same things everyday...well before my resident lolos and lolas died..now,i'ts a new batch of mentally ill,sometyms annoying residents.

3 people had died in a week..2 were expected ,the other a surprise.it really comes in 3's..
to mike boy,eds and ray md may u find peace wherever u all may be..

It's very hard not to feel grief..everyday,well most days of the week i feed and care for them.put them to bed at night.talk when they don't even answer back.or try to find some sort of content to what they say..

mike or mikee boy as i call him,wanders early in the morning..i see him on the hall way n greet him a good morning and he would always say good morning dear...he turns the lights off(in other peoples room)

ed's is lady edna..who would say things u least expect

ray md.well i really haven't been attached since his room is downstairs and I'm always upstairs

I'm hoping to get paid mor than a grand..

just needed to pay myself more and my bills,

hoping for a good night tonight

Sicut me Deus adjuvet

ever mine

2009-07-10T05:55:00.000-07:00

eastbourne was nice...something new since the seashore was covered by what the english call pebbles.and what i define as bato..as in

ding ang BATO..had a bit of d sun n sea.the bloody cold seawater.twas reall scorching--the sun but the water damn cold.

i did enjoy it.nobody cared f sombody went topless or naked ..or that somebody with the bulges or lumps of adipose tissues wrapped around her body go swimming wearing a swimming suit..well kinda decent don't u think ?it's one piece.

hopefully my boss won't sack me..at least not yet.

or that the home office won't get me deported..i don't even have money saved much less to buy a plane ticket .

Sicut me Deus adjuvet

eastbourne experience

2009-07-07T05:45:00.000-07:00

5th of july..had decided to try out english summer,or at least an english sun at the beach.me n my mate,jade went to eastbourne.it;s a seaside town.about 2 hr bus ride from maidstone.we did enjoy eating fish n chips.n sunbathing(feeling puti)n swimming n d sea.dey sed it would b pebbles.haha.its stones!but sand na pag sa dagat kna.i didnt expect the dagat water to be bloody ice cold though.the sun s hot but water will make u squirm n shiver.i had the idiocy of wearing my headband,so i lost it n sea.
after a nice quick banlaw we headed for the shops.seafood serve cold in cups,ice cream n candy shop with all sorts of sweets.i bought loads of dried pineapple rings.then came 5pm .time for the bus to pick us up.we went on a 2 decked bus with 50 elderly pipol.kmi lng bata..wer tired n burned as in sunog.i can feel pain n my arms olready.i had a nap n wen i woke up i had a sudden abdominal cramp telling me m supposed to hurry n find the nearest toilet.no such luck as we were still on a bus full of elderly pipol with no toilet n site(puro grass n trees)i told jade i badly need to do number 2.she asked me to hold it in we will b arriving shortly..shortly meant an hr.toture.i even asked her to buzz the bus to stop ill go poo anywere.even on grass.i was olready crying n begging n cursing the blasted shellfish,prawn n mixed seafood serve cold i ate b4 we went on the bus.
so i did buzzed it.went down at the side of the road n poo.pood for england n the philippines n a thorny grassed area on the side of the road.right at that moment i didnt care at all.f anybody sees me
after much pooing.i didnt hav much wet wipes to wipe it all hence my beach towel,n my shorts became the sacrifice.luckily i brought some pairs of knickers n jade has an xtra pair of shorts.it was the most terrible experience ever.in my entire existence.
cars always pulled over since ther wer trafic lyts.wen i finally deemed myself presentable but without much dignity left. i asked jade to call a taxi for me..n came home with the urgency of seeing the toilet again til the next day.until today.hopfully not anymore tomorrow.i had shellfish poisoning.worst AGE i hav ever experirnced.
i lost my headband,my towel,my dress,my once worn shorts,my 20 quid for the taxi,my dignity,
but i didnt lose a friend.hehe.thankfully jade was wid me.or else i wud've just jump out of a bus in a middle of nowhere.at least she had some sense to at least bring me near civilization,were we know exactly wer we r.hay
im off sick till today. so much for experience.hopfully ill b better tomorrow

amazing maze

2009-06-07T00:14:00.000-07:00

48 years after walking round and round.we finally found our way.

actually it found us.

we were giving up already and decided to find not the center but the way out.

then we just found ourselves at the center with an elevated stone.you can see other people losing their way too..and it also turned out that the center is also the way out...through the grotto.we need to go down under.

the castle's garden

2009-06-07T00:13:00.000-07:00

i can jump

2009-06-07T00:01:00.000-07:00

i jumped like a million times before jade captured it haha.it was either im on the ground already or still was about to jump.

next time we'll do tumblings.wish us luck

summer sandals

2009-06-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

bought this sandals almost 2 months ago.from clarks..before it was 40 quidd,then it is 25 quidd.but if a buy a second pair,u'll only have to pay for 1 pound..

hence the matching sandals.we only had to shell out £13 each.done deal aye?

i love this town

2009-06-04T08:46:00.000-07:00

even ducks fall in line...

screaming for ice cream

2009-06-04T08:43:00.000-07:00

tiramisu ice cream ---almost too much.hahaha.6 scoops went directly to my flabs.

no carbs this week

the heat is on

2009-05-29T10:25:00.001-07:00

the heat si on..hehehe.super.

benign

2009-05-08T13:27:00.000-07:00

my 6 hr shift this afternoon was astoundingly benign,no rushing n stress and me n my team finished ahead of time. maybe because were downstairs..unlike upstairs.

hopefully tomorrow will b the same.i'll b downstairsd again fingers crossed.

having a runny nose and a sorethroat.blame it on the english weather.3:45 pm its raining hard then at 3:50 its all bright sunny..the sun is up but the wind so strong n chilly cold.

and whats more funny its hot and toasty inside the nursing home..im talking about boiling point hot...when ur outside you got frozen,numb fingers inside u sweat more than a pig n u get soooooooooo thirsty everytym.

but its nooot the same everyday though.

somedays u take pride doing ur work well,somedays it feels like u did all the work--no pride in that.only body pains and stress.some days u got the fabulous wogwan team,some days nobody turns up but u.that would be the worst..wishin u didnt show up as well.

sicut me Deus adjuvet

tweegy

2009-05-07T03:58:00.000-07:00

we weren't really close ,i mean not friends friends if not for the completion and graduation thing.and she is my friend's friend so that started it.the friendship.
bloomed through our review together with the rest of the gang--the healthy babies..the endless koreanovela marathons,food trip--penongs dimsum and not to mention shopping.

and the endless countless times i was broke ,she was there to lend a hand.a hundred even hehehe.n treat me to some decent meals..all of the healthy babies had one point or another lend me money,gave me food even pamasahe sa jeep hahaha.even my fs account,tweegy's the teckie n m da oldie...
in general,im miserable being away from home
but im gonna see them all soon.in about 8 months or so

love u all

in english

2009-05-04T13:11:00.003-07:00

dine in or take out?--in english--eatin in or take away
pitcher---jug
vest---sando hehe
pants- trouser
undies--knickers

and words u may likely hear always, oh dear..lovely,smashing,brilliant.

in english

2009-05-04T13:11:00.001-07:00

almost

2009-05-04T13:02:00.000-07:00

almost a year has gone ,lots of things had happened.
new hair style,new job,..starting anew in a foreign land.
going back to studying,reading more,going places a lot,
eating all sorts of food but still sticking to pinoy n chinese though
missin my hommies,hehe..my friends,my davao,my dog..the food ,msg hahaha
missin my meds,my john lloyd..so much

doing things on my own..exploring places,asking for directions..folllowing the arrows(mainly)
smiling to strangers..

to ulrich

2008-07-27T02:22:00.000-07:00

A tribute to a knight, a teenage heartthrob, a Joker
By Michelle Katigbak
Friday, July 25, 2008

The highly anticipated movie The Dark Knight just hit theaters last week and impressed audiences from start to finish. As far as we were concerned, though, it should have just been called The Joker. Indeed, the amazing new installment in the Batman series was all about one character — the crazy, snarling, laughing madman that is known to all in the Batman universe as The Joker… and is known to me as one of my favorite young male character actors of the past decade, Heath Ledger.
As a matter of fact, I was originally weighing whether or not I wanted to watch the movie at all simply because I could not accept that this was going to be the last Heath Ledger movie I saw. I guess I figured if I didn’t see it, there would always be at least one more Ledger movie for me. Fortunately curiosity and a natural love for comic book movies overcame all and I went to see the flick. As expected, Ledger did not disappoint. His Joker took the character to a whole new dark and demented level. He was truly disturbing. Now his predecessor Jack Nicholson was also quite impressive as the clown-like villain, but Heath took this Joker in a completely different direction. In Ledger’s own words his Joker was “a psychopathic, mass-murdering, schizophrenic clown with zero empathy.” For the first time I was actually scared of him despite his painted-on smile and crazy antics. I had my hands covering my eyes the first time he held a knife to that gangster’s mouth and asked “Why so serious?”
It’s a completely different take on The Joker than what existed before. Even the makeup is new — looking more unplanned, less complete, even deranged. Instead of the signature perfect-looking clown/mime makeup of past Jokers, we have a haphazard slap of white paint, some black around the eyes and this evil lopsided red-painted mouth with the scars clearly visible. It really looks like some crazy person had just slathered it on in a hurried manner without caring about the outcome. It looks chaotic. In short — terrifying.
Not to mention that the film stays true to the original Batman plot, making The Joker a formidable — heck, maybe even the strongest — of the Caped Crusader’s foes. We see how it’s so difficult to catch a madman who has no plan and no agenda, just flying by the seat of his pants. We see a villain who doesn’t care about anything — life, money, power. He would just as soon see the whole city burn. It made it believable that Batman was so hard-pressed to fight someone like Joker, who has no rules, which, as a superhero, Batman would be bound to follow. I must admit I really liked the film’s take on that and the chemistry between the two actors was electrifying and undeniable.
And this, again, brings me to how sad I was as the movie began to end; knowing that this scary/crazy Joker would never again grace the silver screen left me feeling dull and aching inside. I have always been a Heath Ledger fan, ever since his early days doing lesser known movies like the crime thriller Two Hands which is what earned him a role in 10 Things I Hate About You — the movie that made me really fall in love with him. What I really liked about Heath was his aversion for safe or stereotypical roles. Beginning his career in Australia, Heath started acting because in high school he had a choice between cooking class or drama. Since cooking class held no interest for him, he chose drama. And the rest is history.
He didn’t get a break right away, though. It took a lot of auditions and tryouts before he even got bit roles in movies and television. He even did brief stints on stage including playing a gay cyclist. After the commercial success of 10 Things I Hate About You, though, Heath was finally getting noticed in Hollywood. Unfortunately, at the time he was being labeled as the next teen heartthrob and he didn’t like it (very much, actually, like his co-star, non-traditional teen actress Julia Stiles). To veer away from those kinds of roles, Heath went in a completely different direction, accepting a very serious role in the Mel Gibson movie The Patriot.
Several more movies followed after that including Monster’s Ball, The Four Feathers, The Order, and my personal favorite, 2001’s A Knight’s Tale. This is probably the movie that endeared Ledger to me forever. I loved his portrayal of William Thatcher, the young peasant who changed his stars and became a knight. This is probably ranked right up there as one of my favorite movies ever. His honesty and depth made this character come to life for me and I will always remember this role with fondness and admiration. I must admit I had a bit of a crush on this Aussie actor in this flick.
And, of course, who can forget Ledger’s most famous movie performance? When Brokeback Mountain premiered the Oscar buzz around him was palpable, and rightfully so. Through this film, his acting prowess was finally fully appreciated and people could finally see what a serious and multi-talented actor he was. Though he didn’t win the trophy, Heath was nominated for an Oscar, a Golden Globe, a BAFTA award, a SAG award, and he won an AFI Award for Best Actor and a New York Film Critics Award for Best Actor all for Brokeback Mountain. People now knew that they could expect great things from him.
More movies followed and more international awards as well. It’s painful to realize that Heath was at a perfect point in his career where he could experiment and find all different kinds of characters to play. While his personal life may not have been as successful (he and Michelle Williams had decided to call it quits), he still had a beautiful baby daughter and an unbelievably bright future ahead of him. That is, until January 22, 2008.
I remember getting a text message about it that day and thinking it was someone’s idea of a sick joke. When I found out it was true I was genuinely sad and couldn’t help but think that he died at the same age that I was. There has been much speculation about the true nature of his death, but I won’t get involved in conversations like that. Friends always say that he had trouble sleeping since he was always thinking, thinking, thinking. To me, his death was an accident — a terrible waste and an unbelievable loss, but an accident. One that took away one of the most promising young actors in the world today. He even posthumously shared an Independent Spirit Award for his work on the 2007 film I’m Not There which was presented in February 2008. And there are even rumors of a possible posthumous Oscar, and if you ask me, that award would not only be overdue, but well deserved.
So as I closed the chapter and watched my last Heath Ledger movie, I realized that it is not truly the end of my admiration for this brilliant young thespian. While there won’t be any new movies — the work he’s done will continue to entertain audiences, including myself for many years to come. I know I could be old and senile and still enjoy A Knight’s Tale or The Dark Knight. Heath was, in many ways, like a shooting star, burning strong and bright and gone too soon. Wherever he is, I hope he was found peace at last.

blessed sunday

2008-07-13T05:00:00.000-07:00

Beware the dream stealersNEW BEGINNINGS
By Büm D. Tenorio, Jr.
Sunday, July 13, 2008

If you believe in the infinite power of dreaming, success is not far behind. Since victory is a destination, however, expect potholes, even thunderstorms, along the way. In every step you make to inch closer to your goals, you will meet people who will shoot down your inertia to achieve your dreams. Be wary of them. They are called the dream stealers.
Conceiving dreams and stealing them are like witchcraft. For every wielder of white magic, there looms in one nook a black magician, ready to cast a sinister and shady spell. For every ounce of good deed you do, someone out there will still say bad things about you. With focus, however, the black, the bad and everything negative is washed away, burned to oblivion, never to return again.
Dreamers know how important a dream is. It’s their passport to success. It’s the wind that will turboprop them to flap their wings and fly. It’s the fire under their seats, the fire that keeps them warm, that makes them aglow, that makes them believe that everything is possible for a man with ambitions.
Dreamers are responsible for their lives. Stealers are responsible for the death of the dreamers’ dreams. The maker and stealer of dreams are similar in a sense that both are dreamers. The former dreams to advance his life. The latter dreams to put a stop to the former’s dreams.
The dreamers are everywhere. So are the stealers. Both exist in real life.
The dreamers are easy to spot. They work hard. They are conscious of their paths, never wanting to dislodge something or someone on their way to their destination. They experience trials and tribulations but they never lose sight of their focus. Dreamers see opportunities for every problem they encounter. They believe in resolute will.
The stealers are sometimes hard to recognize. They are scheming. They hide in many masks. Sometimes they are clothed in fine gold only to find out that beneath them is a trove of covetousness and resentment. They are in the neighborhood, like the man who told you once that you would not amount into anything. They thrive at your workplace, like a colleague whose envious prying eyes are always speckled on you. They are in your circle, like the pseudo-pal who loves to hear success stories but hates to see successful ones. Sometimes they are sadly found at home. On the streets. In the air. And when you feel that you want to give up pursuing your dreams, that’s the time you know the stealer resides in you.
Since you believe in the power of dreaming, you continue the journey. Your belief that you can achieve your aspirations fuels your enthusiasm to really, really conquer your dreams. As you sprint or fly, your enthusiasm will soon burst into passion then it fires your soul and lifts your spirit. You reach your destination. You achieve your dream. And in your wake you find the dream stealers, wagging their tails, gasping for breath, dying of exhaustion. The birth of your victory is the death of those who wanted to steal your dreams.
The only thing that matters between the dreamer and what he wants in life is the will to pursue his ambitions and the faith that it is possible to acquire them. Indeed it’s true that to get what one has never had, one must do what one has never done before. Dreaming is one, finding ways how to enact the dreams is another.
Life is no geometry that there’s a straight line that connects one point to another. There’s no straight line between a dreamer and his dreams. Always, always, challenges bisect the path. Sometimes you stop and design a new plan, unmindful that the world is slowly caving in on you. You involve again the Guy Up There in your planning and soon you see the light. You continue to walk to your destination and upon reaching it, you let loose of a smile, so infectious that you inspire others to keep pursuing their dreams, too. Even with the dream stealers around, you know in your heart that life is still beautiful. Indeed, it is.
Dream stealers are challengers of life. As long as you know your value, as long as your fidelity to your dreams is intact, there’s no reason for you to fail; there’s no reason for you not to be a dream weaver.
Enjoy the journey. Happy dreaming.

goodbye heathcliff

2008-01-23T20:55:00.000-08:00

to u. my ulrich.u had rocked my world.Inspired me with ur characters.I thank u.Patrick verona,Gabriel martin,ned kelly,jacob grimm. Harry the bestest friend faversham and Sir Ulrich von Lichtenstein of gelderland and Sir William Thatcher.Good bye.U may be lost.but never forgotten

thanksgiving

2007-11-27T02:37:00.000-08:00

Sunday Life
A million and one thanks!
By Wilson Lee Flores Sunday, November 25, 2007

I would maintain that thanks are the highest form of thought, and that gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder. — English poet/journalist Gilbert Keith Chesterton (1874-1936)
Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns; I am thankful that thorns have roses. — French novelist/journalist Alphonse Karr (1808-1890)

Despite America’s decline in leadership — from Washington, Jefferson and Lincoln down to George W. Bush; from hotel builder Conrad Hilton to nihilist great-granddaughter Paris Hilton; plus many economic, political, military, moral and other woes — I still admire one of their traditions rooted in their traditional strong faith: the annual Thanksgiving Day holiday proclaimed in 1863 by US President Abraham Lincoln for every final Thursday of November and prompted by a series of editorials by writer Sarah Josepha Hale. This commemorates the Christian pilgrims who sailed to Plymouth, Massachusetts in 1621 to escape religious persecution and who helped establish the US as a great democracy.
Even if we’re Asians, this is a good time to reflect on the many wonderful things on this beautiful yet imperfect planet and in this life that we should be thankful for. An ancient Chinese proverb says (in Mandarin) “Yin-suey shi-yuen,” which means whenever we drink water, we should remember the spring where it came from, never forgetting the past and always thankful. Here is my own (not yet complete) thanksgiving list:
• Be thankful that sunrises and sunsets are free, or else we couldn’t afford them.
• Be thankful that behind every storm is surely the rainbow of hope and future sunshine.
• Be thankful for stars: like diamonds in the velvet black of night, beautiful and free.
• Be thankful for our dreams, for life would have no excitement without them.
• Be thankful for small losses or small pains: many others on earth suffer worse.
• Be thankful for our home, whether small or big, for countless others are homeless.
• Be thankful for strangers who are Good Samaritans, so that we can be so to others, too.
• Be thankful for our family, for they help us become who we are and what we can be.
• Be thankful for true friends, because they are often more dependable than even kin.
• Be thankful for pet dogs, because they are always more loyal than friends.
• Be thankful for those who criticize us, because more people are destroyed by praise.
• Be thankful for those who doubt us, to motivate us to prove them dead wrong!
• Be thankful for our mistakes, because life would be so boring if we are all perfect.
• Be thankful if others try to oppress or cheat you, for it’s worse to be the oppressor.
• Be thankful for the chance to give: it’s a blessing to be able to share with others.
• Be thankful to those who have helped us: never forget them, but forget those we’ve helped.
• Be thankful to those who’ve wronged us: sincerely forgive them, but never forget!
• Be thankful for cruel odds or fate, because our victory shall then be so much greater.
• Be thankful for storms, so that we can better appreciate rainbows and sunshine.
• Be thankful for crisis, because what doesn’t destroy us can only strengthen us!
• Be thankful for crisis: a Chinese proverb says it brings dangers and also opportunities.
• Be thankful for crisis, for only then can we know who our true friends are.
• Be thankful for stress, so that we can be reminded to relax and balance our lives.
• Be thankful for tiredness, for it makes us sleep even better and more soundly.
• Be thankful for occasional noise, so that we can be grateful for silence and music.
• Be thankful for sublime music and art, so we can be reminded of excellence.
• Be thankful for poetry, good books and movies, so we have more in life to enjoy.
• Be thankful for the infinite beauty of nature, so we can be reminded of our mortality.
• Be thankful for solitude, to allow us time to reflect and continuously renew ourselves.
• Be thankful for hunger, so we can better appreciate food, no matter how simple.
• Be thankful for fine foods and wines, so we can relish the bounties of the forests and seas.
• Be thankful even for foods that aren’t delicious: at least we know we have good taste!
• Be thankful for waiting, so we can have time to rest, pause and think.
• Be forever thankful to all our teachers, whether in school, in our families, or in life.
• Be thankful for tears, for they wash away conceit and help us better enjoy laughter.
• Be thankful for every loss, so we may be humbled and challenged to persevere more.
• Be thankful for losses, reminding ourselves that they are only setbacks and not defeats.
• Be thankful for setbacks, because they give us priceless lessons no victories can offer.
• Be thankful for pain, for it makes us feel we’re alive and that we must be stronger!
• Be thankful for hard-earned victories, because easy gains are often so easily lost.
• Be thankful for risks, because life would have no challenges without them.
• Be thankful many of the best things in life are free, or else we’d all be broke.
• Be thankful for a clear conscience, because peace of mind and honor are priceless.
• Be thankful for wonderful parents, because their examples should forever inspire us.
• Be thankful for our free will, that all of us can choose and make our own destiny!
• Be thankful for good health, because it is more valuable than material wealth.
• Be thankful even if we are sick: at least we are still alive and every day is a miracle.
• Be thankful also for certainty of death, so that we can think and plan for our afterlife.
• Be thankful for answered prayers, reminding us that God exists and is all-powerful.
• Be thankful even for unanswered prayers, for not everything we want is good for us.
• Be thankful for our capacity to love and to be loved, for those are the essence of life.
• Be thankful for our blessings, counting them is better than counting hurts and regrets.
• Be thankful to those who forget to say thanks, so we can be reminded to be different!
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cine europa

2007-10-15T01:56:00.000-07:00

yesterday got to watch 3 movies from cine europa for free!!!

Meeting the enemy (Slovakia) El Viaje de Carol(Spain) and Ellis in Glamuorland(New Zealand).

2007-07-16T00:57:00.000-07:00

getting bigger

2007-05-11T18:24:00.000-07:00

timo cruz zes

2007-05-11T18:18:00.000-07:00

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

2007-05-11T18:17:00.000-07:00

Today marks a profound and bittersweet milestone for all of us, as we bear witness to both an end and a beginning. And while we must continue on, we must also be grateful to have been blessed with someone who has so ably guided us to where we are today. When there has been so much love and happiness for someone, it is natural to be reluctant to close such a wonderful chapter in our lives, for moving forward is rarely accomplished without considerable grief and sadness. And while our sorrow may be profound, the clouds will clear, and the sun will shine on us again. And in that warm, bright light we will find ourselves facing a glorious future. A future of exciting challenges and infinite possibilities, in which the horizon will stretch out before us, trimmed in the heavenly glow of the sunrise of our tomorrow.

failure to launch

2007-04-12T21:17:00.000-07:00

i failed my cgfns exams...only scored 349.passing rate is 400..
I had been struggling for some time now.with myself n the things around me.but I believe,someday i'll know why.I keep on learning lessons in life---
humility,commitment.I was'nt really ready for the latter..but anyways when will i be ready?
I guess never.I need to learn to go.go with the flow.go to hell.or wherever.just go.proceed.
I've always looked back that I forgot to look forward.I was busy reflecting,analyzing and rationalizing the things of the past.I have been literally stuck with the past.
i need to let go,I know.But i dunno If I can go on and carry on.
They say it's either u get over it or get out of it..
I got out of it.but I can't get over getting out of it.
and guess what,I want it back..
Hope I get the call again..and try again.
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet.

''together we all pass''

2007-04-11T23:00:00.000-07:00

sa jip papuntang waterfront galing kay sto. Niño

2007-04-11T22:58:00.000-07:00

to cebu and back

2007-04-11T22:52:00.000-07:00

me n tweegy japs on our way back to davao..d day after d-day.march 15...no results yet..

to garci

2007-04-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

my beloved pup garci gars..goodbye dawg...huhuhu

girls nyt out

2007-02-18T02:29:00.000-08:00

24

2007-02-18T02:18:00.000-08:00

24 days to d-day...i dunno.

i really thought i'd be som1 who'll "stick n stay" when shit happens but i am pala da coward hul run away.

well c nic ang d8 ko nung vday...

Check out my Slide Show!

2007-02-07T21:54:00.001-08:00

2007-02-04T18:19:00.000-08:00

art of seduction

2007-02-04T18:17:00.000-08:00

2007-02-04T18:12:00.000-08:00

2007-02-04T17:44:00.000-08:00

LULLABY
Ciel Perlas

Tulog na aking mahal
Takot ay kalimutan
Di kailanman iiwan
Pagmamahal sa'yo ilalaan
Di hahayaang masaktan
Gabi't araw ay babantayan
Hangga't ako ay kailangan
Pangako ko hindi lilisan
Ang araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas rin ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan din
Bukas ay salubungin
Harapin ang umaga
Dala nito'y pag-asaYakapin mo ang ligaya
Pagkat hindi ka na mag-iisa
Ang araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas rin ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan dinBukas ay salubungin
Tahan na...Ang araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas rin ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan din
Bukas ay salubungin
Di na muling luluha pa
Ligaya ay nahanap na...

rostered 1/17/2007

2007-01-21T19:19:00.000-08:00

thank God...51 days to go ....D-Day is coming..n m getting ready.
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

do or die

2007-01-21T19:06:00.001-08:00

If u dreamed of a dead loved one,does it mean ur gonna die too?
I woke up at 7:30am...I dreamed of my lolo,whom i call tatay...first it was like something was pulling me into a wall.I am in a small room...then I saw my lolo on the bed,Smiling at me.then we hugged and he kissed me in the cheeks..all I said was {"tay,nakita mo na c lawrence?"(he's my 1st pamangkin sa pinsan n tatay's first apo sa tuhod..}
then there was my youngest cousin sai..Tatay kissed them.then I woke up..
What cud this mean?
I've been having dreams about my family these past few days..maybe because i miss them..But this is the first time i ever dreamed of someone over the rainbow..i dunno.
am absent today...i went to St.Jude parish and prayed for tatay..lit candles.maybe I outta go visit him when I go home this weekend..
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

do or die

2007-01-21T19:06:00.000-08:00

still not rostered

2007-01-16T23:21:00.000-08:00

it's 56 days to d-day,but I'm still not rostered.....hope I do get Rostered soon..for the march exam..I NEED THAT CHANCE..Sicut me Deus Adjuvet..

2007-01-11T19:05:00.000-08:00

Chasing Cars
We'll do it all
Everything On our own
We don't need Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
I don't quite know How
to say How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all
I can see I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world

post partum

2006-12-21T18:38:00.000-08:00

had visited sweetot sa hospital.hav'nt seen her since yesterday..post partum mum na sya..nkita ko na c ulrich but pix lng muna.wla pa kc xa room in..Mother n son will be going home this afternoon...

baby's out

2006-12-21T18:32:00.000-08:00

yesterday,December21st at 4pm..my best friend,SWEET gave birth to a 2.85
kg healthy baby boy.He will be named Ulrich..I'll be posting his pics
soon...Congrats!

i love him here

2006-12-12T20:36:00.000-08:00

to uncle boy

2006-11-22T01:06:00.000-08:00

my earliest memory of you was when you were trimming my fingernails,now, I couldn't even return the favor..last wensday,nov 15 as i see you unconscious and restless @the ER...i just went numb.blank.heart pounding
..I felt nauseated.lightheaded.I was embarassed that I could faint don sa treatment room. .So i went out,leaving you to somebody else's care.I went to the church you know.I prayed.for you.
But there are things out of my control..it's a lesson I learned and still learning.the night before you died,I talked to God.to take care of you..
I denied myself of crying 4 u in the hospital because I have to be strong or pretend to be for mama.
I love you.May God welcome you home uncle boy.May your soul rest in peace.
give my love to tatay...will you.ill b praying for you.
thank you very much for everything.

love,
yangyang

mardi gras

2006-11-13T22:21:00.000-08:00

grey's anatomy

2006-11-07T02:46:00.000-08:00

meredith grey: Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?

We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we
want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see
what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to
ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We
deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces.