a must read!

The ‘March’ of time
By Debbie Ang Uy
The Philippine STAR
09/10/2006

I was walking back to a hotel one noontime in Makati when a woman suddenly stopped me. She was thin, middle-aged, casually dressed, and had a distraught look on her face. Her mouth was moving fast, but the surrounding noise drowned out her voice. Finally I heard, "Nurse po ako sa Canada, nanakawan ako ng wallet sa tren. Kung pwede makahingi ng pamasahe." (I’m a nurse in Canada. My wallet got stolen on the train. Could you spare me money for transportation?) Warning bells rang in my head. Was this a hold-up in disguise? If she needed money, why was she carrying a lot of shopping bags? On instinct, I shook my head and said, "Sorry, wala po e." She nodded her head, as if used to the rejection, and stepped back. I walked away. Then I felt guilty. Why did I refuse to give help? I knew why: I was afraid. I was, after all, in Makati, the same place where I had been held up years ago. Naturally I would be paranoid. I had heard of scams like this before. A stranger asks for help, a Good Samaritan lends a hand but gets robbed at the least. But what if this person was telling the truth? I tried to shake off my guilt. What was happening to me? I used to be the person who wanted to help. I used to want to change the world. And yet, and yet. The things I do and the things I do not do… This lack of courage and loss of idealism echoed as I read Geraldine Brooks’ 2006 Pulitzer prize—winner for fiction, March. Inspired by Louisa May Alcott’s classic Little Women, this poetic novel is set during the first year of the Civil War in the 1860s. Brooks takes the character of the absent father Mr. March and weaves a story about how a man struggles to live according to his ideals during the war. One of the passages that struck me the most in March was this: "It is a hard thing when a man is ruined by the very idea that most animates him." For March, it is his idealism, his strong belief in the cause of freeing slaves. His support in the abolition not only ruins him financially, it also ruins his sense of identity. When the Civil War breaks out, March goes to war as a chaplain despite being a not-so-youthful 39-year-old. He joins because he believes in the cause of a free nation where all people are equal. But as the war progresses, things go from bad to worse. Gradually, March detests his cowardice when his courage could have saved people. He wants to be heroic, but his flaws keep his feet on the ground, unmoving. He realizes that not everyone on his side is good, that even slaves can betray fellow slaves. After serving in the war, March no longer recognizes the man he was. He goes home, but feels like a stranger to his own self. As he sets on the path leading to his house, he feels like an impostor. "This was the house of another man. A man I remembered. A person of moral certainty, and some measure of wisdom, whom many called courageous. How could I masquerade as such a one? For I was a fool, a coward, uncertain of everything." Such is human nature, to imagine ourselves as bigger and better persons than we actually are. But when a tough situation arises and we fail, we cannot forgive ourselves for our weakness, for not doing what we should have done. So we torture ourselves that had we acted differently, things could have been better. They say that books choose you inasmuch as you choose them. I read March without any expectations more than to be entertained. But page after page, I began to relate to the main character’s crossing from idealism to despair to acceptance. Without my being aware of it, March came at the time when I needed to read it. In one of the passages where March talks of the abolition, he quotes the German poet Heine: "We do not have ideas. The idea has us… and drives us into the arena to fight for it like gladiators, who combat whether they will or not." The idea that took hold of me years ago was that I could change the community, make it better. I could be of service. This idealism – and a generous amount of naiveté – pushed me into an arena where I believed I could turn my idealism into reality. But things don’t always turn out as planned. Circumstances are not ideal. And we are not always equipped to deal with non-ideal situations. Before long, I began to lose sight of my goals. I wanted to go back to the person I was once, but who was she really? The ailing March, even on the verge of death, does not want to go home. By his own principles, he had not earned the right. "The efforts of the past year, all of them bore rotten fruit. Innocents have died because of me. People have been dragged back into bondage. I cannot go home – to comfort and peace – until I have redeemed the losses I have caused." By my own principles, I had earned the right to be realistic. I did not cause big losses but I felt my obligation was to take the road more traveled, because I had been disappointed in the road less traveled. I allowed other people to direct me because I wanted to redeem myself in their eyes. It took me time and tears to realize that I owed it to myself to take my own path. Eventually, March is prevailed upon to go home. He is advised that going back to war will not help him or anyone. "Write sermons that will prepare your neighbors to accept a world where black and white may one day stand as equals," he is told. Now I’m trying to reconnect with the person I once was, to the person I liked. This time naiveté is tempered with lessons learned. The spark of idealism is still there, but now kept in check by reality. I no longer aim to change the world by doing great, noble work. I comfort myself that even little things, done with sincerity and good intentions, will find their way into that great, bottomless box of goodwill. The world is not perfect, not everyone is good and supportive. Even we cannot be perfect, no matter how much we try to be. But in most aspects, I count myself lucky. Compared with the rest of the world’s problems, my concerns are mundane, only the tip of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. But each of us bears our own burdens. These problems may not be as immediate or as life-threatening as March’s, but like him, I struggle to be the person I think I should be. And so I work at and hope, with the hope of all hopes and a fearful heart, to someday be a person of passion, ability, courage, faith, and purpose. To come home to the person I will be proud to call me. Ernest Hemingway once wrote, "All good books are alike in that they are truer than if they really happened and after you are finished reading one you will feel that it all happened to you, and afterwards it all belongs to you." March is my favorite book not only because it is beautifully written, haunting and excellent. Although Mr. March "lived" more than 150 years ago and in far different circumstances, his struggles are still contemporary. Years from now I will look back at this period in my life and remember March, of how it spoke to me and of my own struggles. Because of this, I did not just read the book, I experienced it. To borrow from Hemingway: it belongs to me.

addendum

its rea pala..was on my way bak hir in gensan last thursday ng ma axidente bus namin.no one was hurt but it brought fear and shock to us all.was not able to go on duty that nyt..surviving an accident unscathed and with complete body parts still makes me feel nervous..thankful also.reflective,that i might hav died..but not yet.

today is rr's funeral..I pray for tinay...to be strong..and learn to let go.

para sau RR

thank you for everything..d ko na natupad promis ko na librehin ka,kau ni tinay..salamat sa paglibre sa suazo at sa pagsagot sa lahat ng lab results na pinapa interpret ko..sori kung my nagawa man akong d mo nagustuhan..
may you find peace wherever you are.my friend.

(sept3,2006 4am wen he slept forever)



salamat.

justice prolonged becomes JUSTIIS

well after having chikenpox atlast month, I finally did it.I filed for resignation effective n the 29th,though I think they will terminate me in the near future for Absenteism and for being sick, most of the time. I'm such a pain in their ***.
Regrets? only that I have not decided earlier.But now,I'm counting dwn d days to d-day...26 days to g and I'm out.
antagal pa non.huhuhu.
God help me conquer those 26 days that when this is all over,I'll still be whole,unscathed and be able to sleep well at night.

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

mew beginning

the other nyt, I had a dream..my things were gone..I went to the hospital,nobody talked to me or even glanced..as if i do not exist.I wnt home,and I heard my papa say "ning chair ngani,sa gensan ni halin" and I woke up,it's 5am.Time to fix and prepare for my 7-3 duty..took a bath and forgot all about the dream.

During the day,I was asked to extend till 7pm.twas 8pm na pero la pa mag receive sa akin..felt I had to go home na tlaga.I asked the supe hus gonna eceive me..then som 1 from 2b receivd and i was off na but stayed a while to sign my meds...other NOD's Lily and Arnize are holding me back.they even want me to extend up to 11pm.I told dem am pko tom..ako pa jud ipa start sa mga meds ni arnize na off nko..so,khit anong pigil nila,umalis ako at mariing inihabilin kay lily ang OGT feeding ni dave..diretso sa cantin para sa free meal..bukas nlang dw kc close na cla..paglabas ko hospital,sakay kaagad tricycle nagmamadaling makauwi ng gaisano.amoy chico ang drivr at ang pasahero sa likod..nakaramdam bigla ng gutom..bigla kong pinara at bumaba sabay bayad.pasok sa jollibee at kumain ng chickenjoy......

paglabas ko nakita ko sa kalsada ang tricycle..pisat.my banggaan daw at patay ang driver,un ang tricycle na dapat maghahatid sa akin sa bahay.kng di ako kumain,magutom malamang patay na din ako.
nakakatawa,Oo pero serioso dn.Salamat sa Diyos sa bagong umga.sa bagong simula at sa bagong buhay.
uuwi ako sa amin.iiwan ko ang gensan.na realize ko na life is too short.

Not enjoyment nor sorrow is our destined end or way. But to act that each
tomorrow find us farther than today.

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet.

buladsukasili....sikwati

marj went home to davao...one less rugby gurl..lily will surely be missed.hawa na xa balay ni conlo,via voluntary exit..
half decided to resign..and it's all because of one baby..I felt that im not good enuf,not even average..work is backbreaking,cutthroat yet underpaid.
still wud like to re iterate..

NURSING is our means of living but it is not our entire life.

ciao.

so goes

Had transfered address last thursday,chox lng..still adjusting sa mga roommates ko..I miss davao..so much.with all it's noise and traffic,it's still abeautiful place compared to this...I miss the perks,the polite jeepney drivers,the peace and order,the good FOOD and the SERVICE.

YES,food is a lot cheaper here but it's availability,palatability and variety EWAN. 100 years in service dito..bwisit pa ang mga maarte at mapili na tricycle drivers..

plus sa workplace,all I can say isthat,the quality of healthcare that they want would only be delivered IF and only if,they would staff adequately..no matter how you manage your time,you really cannot attend to all of your patients needs,kaya prioritize na lang.improvize,use initiative. it's really service to humanity..some patients/watchers may humiliate you like you have never been in your entire life.

we do SERVE our patients but we are not their SERVANTS.this is what we do for a LIVING but it is not our
entire LIFE.

i abhor dags

to Uwa Isang

I've known her as a tobacco *leaf* smoker.{.the leaf is rolled into a cigar, She also eats that small coconuty-palm fruit that makes her teeth reddish tinged..}When I grew older, i seldom get to see her na but i heard the news that she had a stroke and was paralyzed..then years after,I saw her still growing strong and able to walk by herself through a walker..
A strong woman,She widowed at 55, and had buried two of her children,including my Lolo,who had died before her..
I came to see and visit her last december though bed ridden,She was somewhat okay..still doing ADL's with assistance.
Then last saturday,I went to see her again,She lost a lot of weight and looked exactly like tatay as she went into stupor..her IVF was dislodged,i removed it.

I had the honor and privilege of knowing her and having her as my uwa Isang.
Luisa Pellobello-Batislaong died on June 07,a wednesday after her sister,whom she had not seen for a while, arrived.Thank you for everything uwa,and we love you..

........ung nurse na MATABA

went on duty yesterday,pm shift..Medicating nurse ako,c maam aimee ang charge n my katokayo rhea ang aid..due meds were given to due patients..Pedia ward ako assigned kya medyo matagal ako mag medicate.nweiz,isang patiente ko ang nagpafollow up ng IV sa isa kong kasama while I was on Dinner break---mga 8pm na cguro..the patient told her,ung nurse na mataba,di masakit mag injection sa dextrose ko...whatever you perceive it to be, i'll take it as a compliment..First day ko pala as medicating nurse without my buddy na orientee din na c darlene.

Today,had attended GSDH employees meeting..from 8-9:30am..then nagproceed sa payroll officer to get my first paycheck,which took about an hour and a half..diretso naman ako sa bank another 48 years passed and finally I got my well earned P2,742.75.

So here I am,blogging d2 sa mall..nasabi ko na ba na katatapos ko lang mag lunch este Brunch..
Day off ko ngaun,n thursdaythe rest of the week graveyard /nocturnal shift na ko.

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

daily bread

God said that
The Philippine Star
06/01/2006

You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

– Psalm 23:4

When 8-year-old Jacob visited his Grampa in the hospital, he came with his own custom-made "Get Well" card. It was an 8 1/2" x 11" piece of stiff white paper folded in half. On the front he had written, "Hope you feel better soon." On the inside, in large block letters, was this message: I will be with you wherever you go. There was no Scripture reference, so Jacob added these words: "God said that." He wanted to be sure I didn’t expect him to be at my side during my entire hospital stay. That added note conveyed an unintended and deeper truth that brought a smile to my face and comfort to my heart.
A hospital can be a lonely place. It’s a world of unfamiliar faces, first-time medical procedures, and uncertain diagnosis. But it’s in just such a setting that God can quiet an anxious heart and give assurance that He’ll go with you down every hall, through every new door, into any unknown future – yes, even through "the valley of the shadow of death" (Psalm 23:4).
Maybe you had an unexpected setback or loss. Your future is unknown. Trusting Jesus as your Savior and Lord, you can be sure of this: He will go with you wherever you go. You can believe it. God said that! – Dennis De Haan
Whenever I feel that Christ is near, All cares and sorrows flee; He is my strength, my hope, my life, He’s all in all to me. – Lewis
READ: Psalm 23 No danger can come so near th Christian that God is not nearer. The Bible in one year: • 2 Chronicles 15-16 • John 12:27-50

toxic!!!

hello bloggerS!!!m back..tis my 3rd week on the job,2nd week<7th> on the floor..still adjusting.Werla pa most of the time..pero eto lng talaga masabi ko....SERVICE TO HUMANITY jud akong work,dapat 10 times 10 imong patience for the patients,lalo pa sa watchers.
.Gargantuan, arduous, backbreaking, ball-buster, bothersome, burdensome, challenging, crucial, demanding, difficile, effortful, exacting, formidable, galling, hard, hard-won, heavy, herculean, immense, intricate, irritating, labored, laborious, man-sized, not easy, onerous, operose, , problematic, prohibitive, rigid, severe, stiff, strenuous, titanic, toilsome, tough, troublesome, trying, unyielding, uphill, upstream, wearisome in short, LISOD.*WINK*

Lakambini Bottom (Fat Burner album)
Datu's Tribe

Pagbaba pa lang ng kombi tinitigan ko naTibok ng puso ko niyayanig ng lakad nyaForty-six ang waist, fifty-eight ang braThree hundred fifty pounds na gumigiling sa kalsadaTuwing sya'y ngumingiti hirap ang facial muscles nyaKahit di ko nakikita love na love ko cheek bones nyaTuwing syang nagdadabog, limilindol sa barangayPag sya'y tumatawa bilbil nya'y kumakawayBinibining sexy (4x)Eh ano ngayon kung mataba syaMas masarap daw magmahal ang babaeng lumba lumbaEh ano ngayon kung mabigat syaImbis na tawaging baboy, porkchop, lechon baka, balyenaSince there's more of her, there's more to love (more to love)Binibining sexy (type kita)Binibining sexy (kahit matabang matabang mataba ka)Binibining sexy (love kita)Binibining sexyLegs nya'y malatroso ang datingPamatay ng dalag pwedeng paddle sa hazingSalwal nya'y pwedeng trapal pag may libingAno mang sabihin ng friends ko sa friendsterSa skwela, sa bahay, pati na sa barangayWala na bang karapatang mainlove ang ubod ng taba (alright)Binibining sexy (you made me fat)Binibining sexy (but i love you like that)Binibining sexy (don't say you look like a pig)Binibining sexy (but i like it even it's really big (?) )Binibining sexy... (Ano bang problema kung mataba, mataba,... mataba)

scuttlebutt

its raining outside...that's why i got to log in.. I STILL ALIVE. bt still working on getting a job..and since it's pouring outside,im thinking of Ahfat's Oyter cake..mmmmmmmm.

must see kim san soon--synopsis

Eps. 1 On Christmas Eve, Sam-soon enters into a hotel looking for her cheating boyfriend Hyeon-woo. She’s been suspicious about his behavior and she sees him going up to the room with a beautiful woman. She pictures herself beating up her boyfriend and the woman. However, when she runs into him, she clings to him and begs him to come back - like a complete loser. At the same hotel, Jin-heon is on a blind date arranged by his mother who insists that he get married before his niece Mi-ju goes to school. He sees Sam-soon begging Hyeon-woo and finds it very amusing. Since he isn’t interested in the date, he decides to finish it as quickly as possible. Offended by his rudeness, the woman throws water in his face. He goes to the restroom to dry his wet clothes and finds Sam-soon crying in the men’s restroom, which she thought the women’s. After breaking up with Hyeon-woo, Sam-soon got even chubbier. She doesn’t have a job. However, she doesn’t have time to sit around and feel bad about the breakup. She has done all kinds of part-time work to make money to study at ‘Le Cordon Bleu’ in France. She has a job interview in a French restaurant, Bon Appetit, and she goes there with the cake she made herself. However, she didn’t expect to see Jin-heon there. To make things even worse, her hair gets stuck in his tie pin. Without hesitating, Jin-heon cuts off Sam-soon’s hair. Furious, Sam-soon throws the cake in his face.Eps. 2Sam-soon gets a job at Jin-heon’s restaurant and a welcoming party is thrown. Everyone is having fun at the party. Sam-soon approaches Jin-heon dancing. Embarrassed, Jin-heon doesn’t know what to do. Hee-jin is on airplane coming back to Korea. She’s very happy to come back after 3 years. At the airport, she takes out her old cell phone. There is a picture of Hee-jin and Jin-heon. She can’t wait to meet him again. Sam-soon meets a decent man on an arranged date. She feels that she finally met a man with whom she can seriously consider marriage. On the other side of the coffee shop, Jin-heon is meeting a woman. Since he’s not interested in meeting her, he can’t wait to leave the place. He soon spots Sam-soon and decides to play a joke. He comes over where Sam-soon and her date are sitting and starts acting as if he were Sam-soon’s boyfriend. Sam-soon thinks that Jin-heon has ruined her almost perfect date, so she tells him that she won’t work at his restaurant.

Eps. 3 Sam-soon is at a loss when Jin-heon asks her to pretend to be his girlfriend in front of his mother Mrs. Na. Sam-soon asks him why he chose her. He says it’s because they will never fall for each other. Sam-soon is surprised to see her sister Yi-young at home. Sam-soon’s mother Bong-sook is shocked to hear that her daughter Yi-young decided to get divorced. Jang Chae-ri comes to Bon Appetit to make a reservation for her engagement party. Chae-ri doesn’t seem happy to hear that Sam-soon will make her cake. When Chae-ri’s fiancé comes in, Sam-soon can’t believe her eyes. He was her ex-boyfriend Hyeon-woo. She feels awkward about making a cake for her ex-boyfriend’s engagement party. When she comes home, she finds her mother sick in bed. She finds out that they’re about to lose their house because her late father co-signed for his friend. She tries to think of a way to save the house.Eps. 4During Sam-soon’s break time, a woman comes into the restaurant. Since Sam-soon doesn’t like her name, she wears a name tag that reads “Kim Hee-Jin” at work. Noticing her name tag, the woman tells Sam-soon that her name is Hee-jin as well. Sam-soon hesitates for a second and offers her a cup of coffee. Everyone in the restaurant believes that Jin-heon and Sam-soon are dating. Jin-heon comes with a huge bouquet of flowers and gives it to Sam-soon. He celebrates their 100-day anniversary. Sam-soon is confused about his behavior. They go out for dinner for the anniversary. There, they run into Chae-ri and Hyeon-woo. One day, a couple comes into the restaurant. It turns out that the man is cheating when his wife comes into the restaurant and catches him red-handed. There’s a big clamor in the restaurant. To change the atmosphere, Sam-soon suggests that Jin-heon play the piano. Left with no other choice, Jin-heon starts playing the piano. Then, Hee-jin enters into the restaurant and Sam-soon realizes that she’s jealous.

Eps. 5Sam-soon takes Jin-heon who is completely drunk to his apartment. Whether he realizes it or not, he doesn’t let Sam-soon leave. Sam-soon spends the night in his apartment. Early in the morning, somebody comes to Jin-heon’s apartment. Sam-soon thinks that his mother came, but she soon finds Hee-jin at the door. Meanwhile, since Sam-soon didn’t come home the night before, Yi-young goes to the restaurant where she’s working. She sits at the table and orders the food, but she doesn’t even touch the food. The chef-in-charge thinks it strange and comes to Yi-young’s table to check if everything’s okay. Hee-jin and Jin-heon face each other later. Jin-heon asks Hee-jin if she has someone else. He asks her how come he couldn’t find her name at any school even though she told him that she would be a student there. He confronts her and screams at her, which makes Hee-jin very sad. Eps. 6Hyeon-woo who was Sam-soon’s ex-boyfriend asks her to make a cake for his engagement party. Furious about him, Sam-soon thinks about putting very spicy peppers into the cake, but soon decides not to. Swallowing her tears, she ends up making a beautiful cake. Jin-heon sees Sam-soon trying to play the piano and decides to teach her how to play. They have a talk over brandy and some cake. Suddenly, they feel awkward about being together. Sam-soon gets up from her seat to go home, but she almost falls because of the brandy she drank. Jin-heon grasps her so she doesn’t fall down. It’s raining outside. They feel much closer to each other. Sam-soon feels that her heart is racing with excitement. Eps. 7Jin-heon and Sam-soon are at the grand opening party of the hotel that Jin-heon’s family owns on Jeju Island. Hyeon-woo and Chae-ri are there, as well. Jin-heon sees Hyeon-woo talking to Sam-soon and gets furious. Hyeon-woo gives Sam-soon a gift and tells Jin-heon to leave her alone. They get into a fight and make a huge scene in front of all the guests. With messy hair and bruised lips, Jin-heon takes Sam-soon to the room. He tells Sam-soon to listen to what he says to her in the future. Sam-soon can’t help but smiling at his remark. Jin-heon lays his head on Sam-soon’s stomach rests. He talks about his brother and sister-in-law who were killed in the accident because of his mistake. He bursts into tears. Sam-soon feels terrible for him. She wraps her arms around him and comforts him like a mother to a crying baby. Meanwhile, Hee-jin and Henry arrive at the hotel after hearing that there’s a party. Henry advises Hee-jin to forget Jin-heon who already has another woman. However, Hee-jin just smiles at him. Jin-heon turns around and tries to ignore Hee-jin when he runs into her in the hallway. Hee-jin asks him to listen to what she has to say for a minute. However, Sam-soon holds onto Jin-heon’s hand tightly.Eps. 8Jin-heon hasn’t heard from Sam-soon since they came back from Jeju Island. She doesn’t come to work, which worries him. Meanwhile, Sam-soon is waiting for a phone call from Jin-heon. Jin-heon lets Hee-jin take a medical test. He receives her medical records from Henry, who is bothering him for some reason. Sam-soon tells Yi-young that she misses Jin-heon. However, Yi-young tries to make Sam-soon give him up by saying that it’s out of the question that they become a couple. Sam-soon gets even more upset at her sister’s remark. Sam-soon makes porridge early in the morning to take to Jin-heon’s apartment. She even practices what she’s going to say when she faces him. She takes a deep breath and rings the doorbell. However, Sam-soon just turns around without telling him what she’s going to say when Hee-jin pops up behind Jin-heon’s back. Eps. 9Mrs. Na who wants to separate Hee-jin from Jin-heon decides to use Sam-soon. Jin-heon is surprised to see Sam-soon coming to his brother’s memorial service with his mother. Jin-heon claims that he broke up with Sam-soon, but his mother walks away leaving Sam-soon with him. Jin-heon doesn’t know what to do when Sam-soon submits her resignation. Since Sam-soon is a very good patissier, he doesn’t want to let her go. He tries to persuade her to stay, but she doesn’t change her mind. Jin-heon and Hee-jin have a great time together talking about the days they have shared together. At the same time, Sam-soon walks home all alone. She tries to forget Jin-heon, but it’s not easy for her. She feels like crying. Bong-soon sees Sam-soon crying her heart out in her room and wonders what happened to her. Suspicious, she asks Yi-young what happened to Sam-soon.Eps. 10On her way out from the restaurant, Jin-heon realizes that the bakery seems empty and lifeless without Sam-soon. He smiles as if he’s just thought of a good idea to bring her back. He offers her an incredible raise to change her mind. However, Sam-soon laughs at him and ignores his offer. Finally, Bong-soon lets Sam-soon legally change her name. It seems to Sam-soon that everything else will be all right if only she changes her name as she has always wanted. She goes to the court house to report her changed name. Afterwards, she’s all dressed up and goes on an arranged date. However, the date openly complains about Sam-soon’s age and appearance. Since he isn’t that great either, she makes fun of him right in front of his face. Meanwhile, Hee-jin goes to Mrs. Na and tries to change her mind. Even though Mrs. Na used to care about her very much, she doesn’t want her to be with Jin-heon anymore. Hee-jin smiles when she’s with Henry, but he can feel her sadness behind her smile. Jin-heon hears from Chae-ri that Sam-soon is meeting someone at the hotel coffee shop. After he sees In-hye having a hard time working alone in the restaurant to replace Sam-soon, he goes to the hotel where Sam-soon is meeting another man.Eps. 11Sam-soon can’t believe Jin-heon and Hyeon-woo exchanging punches while fighting over her. Jin-heon asks Sam-soon not to leave him, but she shakes off his hand. Jin-heon is shocked at the fact that Sam-soon has refused him. Angry at Sam-soon, Jin-heon tries to get rid of the stuffed animal Miss Piggy, but every time something stops him from throwing it away. Sam-soon goes on a diet. She tries to live on various kinds of vegetables, but she realizes that it’s impossible for her. Noticing the bicycle Sam-soon left at his house, Jin-heon calls Sam-soon to take it back. She comes by to pick up her bicycle and Jin-heon ends up giving her a ride home. On the way to her house, Hee-jin calls. When she asks him who is next to him, Jin-heon lies to her and says ‘nobody!’ Eps. 12Jin-heon confesses to Sam-soon that he can’t get her out of his head. He hugs her. Sam-soon bursts into tears with joy. Later, Yi-young asks Jin-heon to stop confusing Sam-soon. When Jin-heon refuses to listen to her, she says that she doesn’t want Sam-soon to get heartbroken over a man anymore. Hee-jin feels nervous about Jin-heon who can’t look at her in the eyes. He seems confused to her. Hee-jin meets Sam-soon and asks her to leave Jin-heon alone. However, Sam-soon tells her that Jin-heon might be the last man coming up in her life. She tells her to leave the choice to Jin-heon. Sam-soon pays back the money she borrowed from Jin-heon and asks him to return the house deed. He returns her the house deed, but tears up the money she’s given him back. Sam-soon is shocked at his behavior. He tells her that he doesn’t mind selling off the restaurant if he has to. He tells her that he loves her very much.Eps. 13Jin-heon and Sam-soon are on Jeju Island again. He asks her to extend their contract. He suggests pretending to be a couple for the next 100 years. Sam-soon just laughs at him. However, when he prepares birthday soup for her, she’s impressed. He isn’t happy to hear that Sam-soon has changed her name to Kim Hee-jin. He thinks that it’s wrong. Nevertheless, she shows off the written permission of her new name, but he takes it away. Hee-jin is sad when she can’t reach Jin-heon. Henry tires to make her feel better, but it doesn’t work. Meanwhile, Mrs. Na tells Jin-heon not to see Sam-soon anymore. However, Jin-heon refuses. She decides to go to Sam-soon’s house.Eps. 14Hee-jin tries to keep her cool, but she’s very upset. She starts hitting Jin-heon out of frustration. Jin-heon just lets her hit him. He hugs her tightly and sheds tears. Meanwhile, Mrs. Na finds out that originally Jin-heon paid Sam-soon to pretend to be her girlfriend. Angry at him, she blames him for buying other people with his money. When Sam-soon can’t reach Jin-heon, she rushes into his restaurant. However, she finds out that he didn’t come to work because he’s sick. Worried, she goes to Jin-heon’s place and takes care of him. Jin-heon realizes again how comfortable he feels around Sam-soon. The following day, Jin-heon and Sam-soon do the seven things she has wanted to do with her boyfriend. Jin-heon thinks it’s silly, but he does what she wants him to do. Sam-soon thinks Jin-heon is so sweet and thoughtful. Now, only one thing from her list is left. Without knowing what it is, Jin-heon gets nervous.Eps. 15Sam-soon is confused when she sees Jin-heon and Hee-jin getting out of the elevator together. Jin-heon asks her not to misunderstand him, but she tells him that she still feels that three people are involved in their relationship. Sam-soon goes to Hee-jin’s house when she hears that Hee-jin is sick. Hee-jin has a hard time understanding Sam-soon who has brought the food to her love rival. Hee-jin asks her to leave her alone, but Sam-soon insists on eating some food. Hee-jin who has been very patient with Sam-soon finally grasps Sam-soon by her hair. Henry walks in the room and is surprised to see the two women fighting. Hee-jin decides to go back to the US where her parents are living. After giving it a lot of thought, she asks Jin-heon to accompany her to the US. Eps. 16Jin-heon leaves for the US saying that he will be back in a week. However, it’s been three months since he left. Sam-soon hasn’t heard from him since then. She can’t understand how Jin-heon can do this to her. She really wanted to make it work out this time without getting heartbroken, but the reality only disappoints her and breaks her heart again. Sam-soon is on her way to meet the man she ran into twice on the blind date. When she’s about to leave the house, she’s shocked to see the person who stops the car she’s in. Jin-heon is standing there and staring at Sam-soon. The first thing he says to her in three months is “Are you two-timing on me?” Sam-soon can’t believe what is happening before her very eyes.

drool over daniel

juz want u to know

Alice...m hapi for you. I wish u well..Good Luck. and thank you for everything..from toddler

excuses, excuses

(feb10)....yup.madami ako nun.pero d truth of d matter is FEAR........

I'M AFRAID OF TAKING A BIG STEP IN MY LIFE

lalo na my profession deals with lives..it involves risks..

Im still weighing things down..to work or to train first
(at least for a few months say 3 mos at the most)then work.
I want to work in the big city,I pray God will grant my wish...

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet...

dakilang tambay.....

• eto ako...gikapoy na kay wala ubra..buhay tambay,buhay baboy..buhay parasite...hay life

to apol my prend

The Director
Chuva Hospital
Davao City

Dear Ma'am,

In the belief that der s an opening for aditional staf nurses,I would like to apply for the said position. I recently passed the NLE with a 82% rating.
I am certain that my education and CLINICAL experiences WILL make me a competitive candidate for the position. I Graduated from one of the prestigious nursing skuls in town.

Attached are my documents for your appraisal.( TOR,DIPLOMA,SSS NO. BOARD CERTIFICATE/RATING,PICS)

I am looking forward for your positive response.



Respectfully yours,
(signed)
Narci Ignoramus, R.N.

p.s.
pol, jus add watever u tink s kulang..m just basing on my twisted memory..
dont forget 2 make ur biodata..include ur address and MOBILE NUMBER..

January
7
12
14

21

February
11

18
23
25

March
11

18

25
30
April
8

22
27
29

May
13

20
25
27

June
10

17

24
29
July
8

22
27
29

August
5

12
24
26

September
2

16

23
28
October
14

21
26
28

November
4

18

25
30
December
2

9
14
16

God calling, you listening?

Now that along cherished dream has come true,i am afraid of what the future might hold./the moral responsibility,authority and accountability that is threin on my Calling..but God has mercy...And I trust in His Mercy forever. Bahala na Siya sa akin.. He KnowsBest.
I pray for a job I cud keep to serve Him.
I always take in and had not yet given back.I want to Give back what I hav received and taken in not only to my family and friends But To Him who keeps me from falling and leaves me Faultless in His Presence,and the Only One who saves me from myself...
* * *
p.s.
Sana LOrd,Magtext na cla sa akin..Maraming Salamat po.

bcoz of u by Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you didI will not let myselfCause my heart so much miseryI will not break the way you did,You fell so hardI've learned the hard wayTo never let it get that farBecause of youI never stray too far from the sidewalkBecause of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurtBecause of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around meBecause of youI am afraidI lose my wayAnd it's not too long before you point it outI cannot cryBecause I know that's weakness in your eyesI'm forced to fakeA smile, a laugh everyday of my lifeMy heart can't possibly breakWhen it wasn't even whole to start withBecause of youI never stray too far from the sidewalkBecause of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurtBecause of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around meBecause of youI am afraidI watched you dieI heard you cry every night in your sleepI was so youngYou should have known better than to lean on meYou never thought of anyone elseYou just saw your painAnd now I cry in the middle of the nightFor the same damn thingBecause of youI never stray too far from the sidewalkBecause of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurtBecause of youI try my hardest just to forget everythingBecause of youI don't know how to let anyone else inBecause of youI'm ashamed of my life because it's emptyBecause of youI am afraidBecause of youBecause of you

ahmmmmm.

choi chol -soo<>> (offer a tagay and says) ''If you drink this,we're going steady..If not,we'll go separate ways like strangers...
and kim soo jin gives in..

sweet love

more pics of Kim Soo-jin and Choi Chol-Soo

further i sayeth none

A MOMENT TO REMEMBER

indeed a moment to remember..it will make u guffaw,and cry a river..it's a good one

NURSES BELOW

healthy vavies

To God be the Glory..

I passed the NLE december 2005,by God's Grace and Mercy..
the healthy babies--Ivy,tinay,yvonne,roxan,tweegy and me(sweetot already took n passed last june)plus apol aka NArci hehehe..
However some of my friends were not able to make it...
that's all for now.

ciao

though short lived, he made me feel good

the gang's ol 'ere

my wensdey nyts ain't complete without this...(studio 23)kabarkada ko na cla

gud laf,gud cry

gud laf,gud cry

will and grace......best of friends, fiercely loyal to each other..

gud laf,gud cry

will and grace......best of friends, fiercely loyal to each other..

jamie foxx as max,the cab driver

NO UNUSUALITIES NOTED

NO RESULTS YET!!!!!! 'TIS KILLING ME MATE....KAYTAGAL...NABAYAG...DUGAY GUID .

yellow

got this from ronibats.com
no results yet though..nandito ako with mclaude sa wapuru...nagpapalipas oras hehe.
grabe na ang kaba,lala na at nanaginip ang tita ko na wla daw sa list sa newspaper ang napaka haba kong pangalan.
pinapasa Diyos ko na lang lahat ...pero sana pasado ako Lord..

flat broke 12.6.2005

masisiraan n ko ng bait...eto na naman ako gung ho na sana anak ako ng mayaman...dami na naman kc utang na dapat mbyaran,d tulad noon,ang mga support systems ko malakas,ngaun wala halos kc tag hirap din .magpa gano'n man,ako'y nagpapasalamat pa rin..maliit o malaki,di na mahalaga..
sa lahat ng problema about my finances,mostly sa debts,d ko pinapaabot sa kaalaman ng parents ko.
I'd like to think it's not being secretive but solving my own problems MY WAY..
sabi sabi nga pala nila,lalabas na daw ang exam results this week..sa thursday daw...sana ipanalangin nyo na ma in ako sa list of nu nurses.
mahirap tlaga kc ang exams..take it from me na halos isang taon ng nagrereview..hehehe.(dec2004-mar2005 c/o DDC) and the rest sa SLRC starting last june.

meron na akong suicidal ideation ,iniisip k na kasing tumalon sa tulay kapag bumagsak ako sa NLE..
siya nga pala,nagpasiya akong magdonate ng dugo sa red cross,halos 3 buwan na kc nung huli akong nag donate..kaya lng deferred ako kc mababa pa hemoglobin ko...better luck next time..masakit pa rin ang digital prick..
Naniniwala ako na anuman ang mangyari sa akin,di ako pababayaan ng Diyos..na lahat ng pinagdaraanan ko'y matatapos din.

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

mali ako,,,katangahan

alam ko na folic acid helps prevent neural tube defects.kaya lng d k na recognize ang ANENCEPHALY as one..kya eto,reyna ako ng sablayat katangahan.Isang tama,sampung mali....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

What is Anencephaly?
Anencephaly is a defect in the closure of the neural tube during fetal development. The neural tube is a narrow channel that folds and closes between the 3rd and 4th weeks of pregnancy to form the brain and spinal cord of the embryo. Anencephaly occurs when the "cephalic" or head end of the neural tube fails to close, resulting in the absence of a major portion of the brain, skull, and scalp. Infants with this disorder are born without a forebrain (the front part of the brain) and a cerebrum (the thinking and coordinating part of the brain). The remaining brain tissue is often exposed--not covered by bone or skin. A baby born with anencephaly is usually blind, deaf, unconscious, and unable to feel pain. Although some individuals with anencephaly may be born with a rudimentary brain stem, the lack of a functioning cerebrum permanently rules out the possibility of ever gaining consciousness. Reflex actions such as breathing and responses to sound or touch may occur.
The cause of anencephaly is unknown. Although it is thought that a mother's diet and vitamin intake may play a role, scientists believe that many other factors are also involved.
Recent studies have shown that the addition of folic acid (vitamin B9) to the diet of women of childbearing age may significantly reduce the incidence of neural tube defects. Therefore it is recommended that all women of childbearing age consume 0.4 mg of folic acid daily.
Is there any treatment?
There is no cure or standard treatment for anencephaly. Treatment is supportive.
What is the prognosis?
The prognosis for babies born with anencephaly is extremely poor. If the infant is not stillborn, then he or she will usually die within a few hours or days after birth.

TAMA AKO! YEAH!

Respect the sun's power! While the sun is essential to our health, it can caus great harm. Every time we walk outside we are exposed to the sun's rays...even on cloudy days. The American Academy of Dermatology recommends using sunscreen every day, regardless of the season. Apply it before moisturizer to keep the block close to the skin. (Many beauty products contain alpha-hydroxy, which exfoliates the skin, making it more susceptible to sun damage.) Here's another option for sun-protection: a hat, shirt and umbrella (parasol) made of a patented fabric called Solumbra which offers all-day sun protection. It blocks over 97% of both UVA and UVB radiation, even more than that offered by a typical 30 spf sunscreen, or summer shirt.
http://www.bodyelectrictv.com

my breakfast crush

nurse

Echo Heron, author of Tendering Lives writes, "When a person becomes a nurse, they sign on for life... there is a certain quality – spirit, a depth of soul. Nursing is a calling, an abundance of compassion – the wisdom born of the heart."

tnx to letterjames.de

yeah!

I need all the prayers I could get..it's only a week to go...and my anxiety level goes sky high...

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

another

this goes out to my family and friends

from letterjames.de

watcha tink?

All’s well that ends Newell
BACKSTAGE PASS By Lanz Leviste
The Philippine STAR 11/18/2005

The Harry Potter series is distinctly British literature, and the hiring of Mike Newell, the franchise’s first English director, to helm the fourth book’s screen adaptation is as obvious as it is wise. Of all six of J.K. Rowling’s published novel, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is the most nuanced in its sharp shifts in mood and tone, and Newell, with screenwriter Steve Kloves, impressively compresses the 734-page tome into a two-and-a-half-hour instant classic. Unlike the seminal (albeit inadvertent) bastardizations of American Chris Columbus who directed Harry’s first two juvenile and amateurish romps (God knows what he’ll do with my beloved Rent, its filmic version out at the end of the month), Newell understands the machinery and milieu to surround Britain’s youth. Because Goblet is so much more an exploration into the universally recognized social politics of high school translated for British assimilation, he imbues Columbus’ pedestrianism with the aged, devilish Oxfordian charm of a beautifully shot Hogwarts, where students are naturally rowdy and uncouth and as ruthlessly cliquey as Regina George on a power trip. Working with Kloves, who has penned adaptations for all four Potter films (the next will be by Michael Goldenberg, before Kloves returns for the sixth), Newell is able to replicate the books’ sly British humor. Utterly hilarious was his poking fun at Anna Wintour: the witchy Vogue editor bares unquestionable resemblance (from the bob, the nose, the fur-trimmed coat) to Beauxbatons’ headmistress Madame Maxime, a half-giant with a low voice and penchant for, shall we say, similarly large Hogwarts faculty members. That entrance sequence introducing Beauxbatons and Durmstrang into the Great Hall is pure comic genius. With its reveling in the pettiness, anarchic fun and self-conscious sarcasm of tempered teenage years and enough comic awkwardness to make Ricky Gervais proud, Goblet is an all-too-surprising teen comedy of errors, evoking everything from William Shakespeare to John Hughes to Laguna Beach. The Yule Ball, an honored tradition of the Triwizard Tournament in which Harry (Daniel Radcliffe) has unceremoniously been chosen to participate in, is our first glimpse of a Hogwarts formal: naturally, after a great performance by ‘80s-inspired rock band the Weird Sisters (led by Pulp’s Jarvis Cocker and Radiohead’s Johnny Greenwood and Phil Selway, who wrote three deliciously campy songs for the film), Sixteen Candles-worthy high drama ensues. Suddenly, Ron (Rupert Grint) is Anthony Michael Hall in lacy velvet dress robes. Adapting a 734-page doorstopper forced Kloves to unfortunately cut out large subplots from the novel: nowhere to be seen is Hermione (Emma Watson) campaigning for house-elven rights, or even the Dursleys, or, dare I say, Mrs. Weasley. But most regrettable is how underused the fabulous Miranda Richardson is as feisty Daily Prophet reporter Rita Skeeter; she gives a performance of undeniable command, working with a potentially meaty role that has been sadly discarded. It is wonderful how Radcliffe, Watson and Grint have all matured as able actors, though the three Triwizard champions competing with Harry – Robert Pattinson as Hufflepuffian Cedric Diggory, Clémence Poésy as French Beuxbatons belle Fleur Delacour, and Stanislav Ianevski as Durmstrang superstar Viktor Krum – could have used more dialogue. This leaves more time however for Newell to boast some of the most impressive set pieces to be filmed in a while: each of the Tournament’s three challenges are breathtaking and astutely accurate realizations of the page, with digital effects to rival the best Hollywood has yet been able to screen for its audiences. The brief peek into the Quidditch World Cup; the thrilling and genuinely scary first task with a dragon; the sumptuously shot second challenge in the Black Lake; and the ominous maze of a third task are all moments of awe in the actual possibility of artistic and technical artistry in modern-day Hollywood. And Goblet’s prized set piece, the truly chilling graveyard confrontation with Voldemort (Ralph Fiennes, having so much fun in a coveted role), will remain one of the most memorable film sequences of 21st century cinema, one of utmost foreboding urgency and historic intertextuality enough for it to attain powerful social significance. All this is elevated by Patrick Doyle’s dark and romantic score, who tinkers with John William’s lighthearted themes for something with much more emotional profundity. In Goblet, Newell balances the artistic intensity Alfonso Cuarón so imaginatively (and darkly) accomplished in Prisoner of Azkaban last year with a more vivid understanding of the source text. I welcome the MPAA’s PG-13 rating for Goblet, the first in the previously PG franchise, as it shows a growth and maturity implicit in the succession of J.K. Rowling’s novels. Because we do not see the Muggle world, we are totally submerged into Rowling’s complex mythology, something that wasn’t fully present in the last three films. The film opens up the wizarding world beyond Hogwarts’ already-menacing intimacy, creating its own Middle Earth or Narnia identical to Tolkien’s or Lewis’ dangerous sense of whimsy. Goblet is not only the most magical of the films, but the grandest, most lavish celebration of Rowling’s work, expanding the Potter lore into panoramic narratives as Rowling’s intricate web of plots shows clear signs of emergence. Gone are the sparkly incantations and frothy spells of the childlike aesthetics of magic. Newell both visually and emotionally brings to the table what Rowling begun in Goblet of Fire, evolved gorgeously in Order of the Phoenix, and rendered to wrenchingly greater heights in this summer’s brilliant Half-Blood Prince: he recognizes that Rowling’s magic as an author stems not from clever and simple whodunits or Quidditch matches, but from how she is able to effortlessly knit a tightly woven adult thriller that makes us feel for these characters. The resultant motion picture is an ambitious, sweeping epic masterpiece of lush neo-Gothicism that meets kinetic technological wizardry. Newell paints with a calculated, terrorizing chaos so immensely absorbing it more than veers into Peter Jackson territory; with his slanted, almost disconcerting artistic eye for distorted visual puzzles and the way he finds blithe coherence in a sinister world of melancholy, he is Picasso, and this is his Guernica. The Potter films just keep getting better and better, this one just above what Cuarón’s magic had brought us last year; Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is so far the greatest big-budget cinematic achievement any Hollywood studio has released this year, a fantasy thriller for the ages. Grade: A

In here he looks like an actor I know,but forgot the name..il blog it to ya l8r.(if u watch jessica alba's Dark angel,he is part of the cast..but he is not Stan... *wink*

can't get enuf of stan

In here he looks like an actor I know,but forgot the name..il blog it to ya l8r.(if u watch jessica alba's Dark angel,he is part of the cast..but he is not Stan... *wink*

stan's the man

In times like these,one needs inspiration...
but as hermione would put it, "Viktor is more of physical.......".

Every now and then every girl needs her slice of beefcake..hope stan could be more than that...

deranged by Krum

Name: Stanislav Ianevski

Nickname: Stan

Date of Birth: May 16, 1985

Astrological Sign: Taurus

Siblings: 1 Sister

Pets: a parrot, cat, 2 dogs, and a guinea pig family

Hobby: Gym training

Favorite Sports Team: The Bulgarian National Football Team (Soccer)

Favorite Music: All kinds especially Bulgarian

Favorite Food: Bulargian dishes and anything sweet

Favorite Films: XXX, The Last Samurai, Lord of The Rings Trilogy, and all of the Harry Potter films Favorite Actor/Actress: Keanu Reeves, Vin Diesel, Angelina Jolie, Liv Tyler

Favorite Place Visted: Has travelled the world all his life, but Bulgaria would come first

First Major Acting Role: Viktor Krum in "Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire" How He Got The Part: "Well, I had only been in little school thing. In Israel, we had little theatre things, but they were minor. I got the part in my current school. We had afternoon registration and I was late, and I was speaking to one of my friends in school, running to sign in at the late afternoon. The casting director was walking by and she heard my voice. She turned around and told the head of drama that she wanted me to come to audition. That's how it started. I went to a lot of auditions and I eventually got to meet Mike and got the part." Future Acting Career?: "I've got to see my agent beforehand, but hopefully, there will be things to come." *Our fingers are crossed*

from stanislavi ianevski.com

pink-

my fave song as a college freshman

(Pink - Nine Lives)
Pink - it's my new obsession
Pink - it's not even a question,
Pink - on the lips of your lover
(oh)
'Cause Pink is the love you discover
Pink - as the bing on your cherry
Pink - 'cause you are so very
Pink - it's the color of passion
Ah, 'cause today it just goes with the fashion
Pink - it was love at first sight
Yeah, Pink - when I turn out the light
And Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight
You could be my flamingo
'Cause pink - it's the new kinda of lingo
Pink - like a deco umbrella
It's kink that you don't ever tell her
Pink - it was love at first sight
And Pink when I turn out the light
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight
Yeah!
I want to be your lover
I, I wanna wrap you in rubber
And it's pink as the sheets that we lay on
'Cause Pink - it's my favorite crayon
Yeah!
Pink - it was love at first sight
Pink - when I turn out the light
Pink - it's like red but not quite
And I think, everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

the clock is ticking

tick tock tic tock...20 days and counting...to D-Day.

Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

daily bread

God often sends me joy through pain,

Through bitter loss, divinest gain;

Yet through it all – dark days

or bright – I know my Father leads aright.

– Conklin

daily bread

When fear and worry test your faith

And anxious thoughts assail,

Remember God is in control

And He will never fail.

– Sper

a Christian view of death

A POINT OF AWARENESS By Preciosa S. Soliven
The Philippine Star 11/10/2005
We picture death as coming to destroy;
Let us rather see it as Jesus Christ coming to save.
We think of death as an ending;
Rather think of it as new life beginning.
We think of death as losing;
Rather think of it as winning, as final victory.
We think of death as parting;
Rather think of it as a meeting… of loved ones.
We think of death as going away;
Rather think of it as surviving… home at last!
Death is not extinguishing the light.
It is putting out the lamp — because the DAY, the Eternal Day has dawned.
So, Lord: Help us to see death for what it really is
(Reference: To Those Who Mourn by C. W. Leadbeater)

22 days to go

yes, I am in a race against time.D-Day is less than a month to go..I have yet to receive my confirmation in 2 weeks time.whether or not I'm in or out..honestly have not read a word from my notes nor the books I'm supposed to read..
The gameplan is to practice taking exams..no time to even read now, I guess...It's too late to read now..
I trust in the mercy of God forever.
It's only with Him that I'll survive or even live after all of this..as far as I'm concerned,I'M DEAD MEAT..
ciao

dis s her really--ms. Apol or aka Narci Ignoramus

another from mr. rod nepo's artik

Sometimes we get punched. At
times, we feel like we’re "reeling on the ropes," or like we’re about to be knocked out. And sometimes, no matter how many punches we throw, we can’t seem to hit our target. When we get lucky, we do manage to get some punches in here and there. And, just like in life, sometimes we win, other times we lose. And sometimes we’re saved by the bell. When that happens, we Pinoys love to say, "Di pa tapos ang boxing!"

another exerpt

Make time to enrich your mind and to fulfill your dreams
By Regina Belmonte
The Philippine STAR
10/30/2005

Life is too short for us to be wasting our time on nothing. We don’t have enough time in this life to do everything, but that shouldn’t stop us from trying. Make time for the people you love, for the dreams still unfulfilled, for the enrichment of your mind and yourself, before time runs out. Life isn’t going to stop and wait for us, we have to keep going, whether the times are good or bad, because the world waiting outside is beautiful. Being yourself has become the vibe of today.

People strive to be unique and express themselves. We no longer want to be imitations of something else; now, we want to be ourselves, no compromise, no holds barred. We aren’t afraid to like what we like or do what we do, because all that matters now is that we know we’re being true to ourselves. There isn’t enough time to cater to all the demands of the world today. We have to do what makes us complete, what makes us better people.

Quotations to live by

Quotations to live by

JUST BETWEEN YOU & ME

By Jacquilou BlancoThe Philippine STAR 10/30/2005

Just because a man lacks the use of his eyes

doesn’t mean he lacks vision. – Stevie Wonder

What counts in making a happy marriage is
not so much how compatible you are, but

how you deal with incompatibility. – George Levinger

Kindness is in our power, even when fondness is not. – Samuel

Johnson Forgiveness is the sweetest revenge. – Isaac Friedman

You can always tell a real friend who you’ve made a fool of yourself, he doesn’t feel you’ve done a permanent job. – Laurence J. Peter

I am somebody. I am me. I like being me. And I need

nobody to make me somebody. – Louis L’Amour

There is nothing wrong with making mistakes, just

don’t respond with encores. – Anonymous

Whenever you fall, pick something up. – Oswald Avery

If you have no will to change it, you have no right to criticize it. – Anonymous

One who smiles rather than rages is always the stronger. – Japanese saying

We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand, and melting like a snowflake. Let us use it before it is too late. – Marie Beynon Ray

It doesn’t hurt to be optimistic, you can always cry later. – Lucimar Santos de Lima And if not how, when? – The Talmud

If we are intended for great ends, we are

called to great hazards. – John Henry Newman

Hope hopes we have learned something from yesterday. – John Wayne

Success comes before work only in the dictionary. – Anonymous

You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it. – Margaret Thatcher

Nothing is particularly hard if you divide it into small jobs. – Henry Ford

Ask and it shall be given to you, seek and you will find. Knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives. He who seeks finds. And to him who
knocks, the door will be opened. – Luke’s Gospel

exerpt

Getting ahead of time
IT’S A WONDERFUL LIFE
By Rod Nepomuceno
The Philippine STAR 10/31/2005

Yes, time flies whether you’re having fun or not. You have two choices – either allow yourself to get overwhelmed or you seize it. I choose the latter and you should too. Don’t let time leave you behind. Fly with time, before you run out of time. Time is an ally, not an enemy. Don’t watch it tick away. Take time by its wings and soar with it. Let it take you where you’ve never been before. Go for what matters to you. In the end, that’s what matters. Eventually, all of us will be measured against time – the time that we had here on earth. Wouldn’t you want to pass that final test with flying colors? I know I would.

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Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.

Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.

Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.

Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.

BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us.

When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there.

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.

paano kumain ng libro

from ronibats

Kapag kakain ng libro, huwag maging pihikan; tikman ang lahat ng pwedeng tikman at huwag agad aayaw.
Maaaring mapipilas na ang pabalat na natapunan ng kape at naninilaw na ang mga mapapanghing pahina, pero alalahaning hindi ang mga ito ang iyong nanamnamin kundi ang mga muni-muni ng may-akda. Huwag ding maniwala sa sabi-sabi; magkakaiba ang ating panlasa. Higit sa lahat, tandaan ang sinabi ni Anonymous: “Never judge a book by its movie.”
Nasa sa iyo kung gaano mo kabilis isusubo ang mga salita, pero sana, pagtagalin ang mga ito sa bibig. Huwag kang lunok nang lunok ng mga ideya at kwento. Mahirap mabilaukan o matinik.
Dila-dilaan at nguyain nang mabuti ang mga tauhan upang mas malasahan mo ang pagkakaiba ng matamis, ng maasim at ng maanghang. Gayundin ang gawin sa mga opinyon hinggil sa isang isyu at sa mga taludtod ng tula.
Kung may oras ka, suriin kung paano niluto ng may-akda ang hawak mong libro. Usisain ang paraan ng paghahalu-halo ng mga simbolo at imahe. Huwag kang titigil hangga’t hindi mo nalalaman kung bakit niya nahuli ang iyong panlasa. Dito mo matutuklasang may mga sahog na hindi lamang pandekorasyon, kundi pandagdag sa timpla at pampatakam sa iyo upang ubusin ang mga pahina.
Siyempre, maganda rin kung mararanasan mo ang mga pagkakataong tsibog ka lang nang tsibog, walang ibang iniintindi kundi ang pagguhit ng mga salita sa iyong lalamunan, hanggang sa magmakaawa ang iyong mga mata at mabusog ang iyong utak. Hindi naman kailangang seryosohin ang lahat ng bagay. Ang mahalaga, iyong nakukuha ang sustansiyang gusto mong makuha sa kinakain mong libro.
Sakali nga palang maubos na ang libro, pero nagugutom ka pa at wala ka nang pambili, matuto kang makikain. Huwag mahiya. Basta’t kapag ikaw naman ang meron, magpakain ka rin. Nasa diskarte iyan kung gusto mong makarami.
Inaamin kong may mga librong masarap isuka: mga librong parte ng iyong pag-aaral o trabaho kaya’t pinipilit mong sikmurain, mga librong sa ayaw at sa gusto mo eh kailangan mong harapin tuwing almusal, tanghalian at hapunan. Ganyan talaga. Ang maipapayo ko sa iyo, magpuslit ka na lang. Kumain ka ng mga paborito mong libro habang nagbabawas sa kubeta, nag-aabang ng barkada sa bookstore o naglilibang bago mag-exam. Lalong sumasarap kapag takas.
Hahanap-hanapin mo ang mga libro, kaya naman nakalulungkot ang katotohanang darating at darating ang araw na itatae mo ang mga nakain mo. Pero huwag kang mag-alala, hindi lahat ay nauuwi sa inodoro. May mga butil — gaano man kaliit — na manunuuot sa iyo. Mahirap malaman kung alin at saan. Magugulat ka na lang, dahil isang araw, magigising ka at iyong mapagtatanto: ang bahagi ng libro ay bahagi mo na pala.

from ronibats.com

M.D.

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it.Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it.”— Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

I am not supposed to be in Med. While most people - I, at times - say I shouldn’t be a doctor, the real reason is because I couldn’t.
Although I already knew since first year high school that I wanted to be a physician, my inclination was never towards the life sciences. I despised my biology class; I hated having to memorize every italicized and bold printed term in the book just to pass my teacher’s verbatim exams. I am more of a Math-Chem-Physics student, preferring to memorize a little and derive everything else. Add to that my heightening interest in the literary arts, and it will be clear why I shouldn’t have attended Med school.
Statistics show that for a Filipino family of six to live above the poverty line, its monthly income must at least be fifteen thousand pesos. That is the exact monthly salary of my father, and we’re a family of seven. During my last year in high school, my uncles and aunts repeatedly tried to convince me to take up a course related to computers. Any course at all (Thank heavens the Nursing boom wouldn’t happen till two years later). That’s where the money is, they kept on saying, incessantly reminding me of the need to earn dollars in order to financially assist my parents in the soonest possible time. It was I against almost everybody else, so I couldn’t have attended Med school.
Given the circumstances, I would only be a doctor if I either got into UP’s seven-year Integrated Liberal Arts-Medicine program (Intarmed), or obtained a scholarship grant.
As it turned out, I got both… and I earned not just one financial grant, but two.
Life had been good to me. Here I am: two days away from dissecting my anatomy group’s cadaver, five years from taking the Hippocratic Oath and appending M.D. to my name. I pay no tuition at all, and two thousand six hundred pesos awaits me in my bank account every second Friday of the month. I breezed through my Math and Physical Science subjects, capping my pre-Med years with the birth of a semi-monthly column at peyups.com.
In fact, life continues to be good to me. Just last summer, I had been worrying how to pay for my dormitory fees beginning this semester; little did I know that one of my maternal aunts would hand me a bank check worth twenty thousand pesos before I go back to Manila. Then last week, when I was frantically searching for someone who could lend me money to buy books (My scholarships do provide semestral book subsidies, but how many Med books can you purchase with two thousand pesos?), I received news that the College of Medicine would be awarding me seven thousand pesos because of my academic performance.
I am Paulo Coelho’s shepherd Santiago, in search of my personal legend while the whole universe is conspiring with me to achieve my dream.
Through the years, I have come to believe that part of the magic emanates from my I-want-to-be-this-to-hell-with-the-consequences attitude. I admit I am stubborn that way, but that is how I learned to believe in myself and in what I do. And it works! I know what I want and I am unbelievably getting to it.I have chosen to be a doctor; the only thing left for me to do is to understand my choice. (Now we’re talking Matrix and I am The One, haha!)
I don’t see myself opening skulls to recover the cost of my medical education, getting stuck inside a high-rise hospital 24/7 or doing commercials differentiating a woman’s vagina from her external genitalia. All the good things that have happened since my being an Iskolar ng Bayan have made me realize that neither money nor prestige will make me happy.
I am actually considering life as a community physician, hoping to practice my craft in rural areas where doctors have never set foot and where patients pay for medical services with harvested vegetables and native chickens. It will be devoid of all the hassles of city life - simple, but fulfilling nonetheless. I expect every reaction possible, ranging from “Naks, ang dakila mo naman!” to “Ano? Mag-scarecrow ka na lang!” but I will never forgive the person who tells me “Tsk, sasayangin mo ang talino mo….”
Some say this is just a phase - that I would eventually change my mind and aspire to be a specialist in America like most UP Med graduates. I don’t know, but this is the key reason that comes to mind whenever an unknown force seems to work its way to me, to open doors of opportunity and leave me asking, “Why me?”
I think Somebody up there knows I’m going to be a helluva good doctor.
And I believe I will be.
Five years. Let’s wait and see.

movie quotes from lord of war

Yuri Orlov: There are over 550 million firearms in worldwide circulation. That's one firearm for every twelve people on the planet. The only question is: How do we arm the other 11?
customers.

Andre Baptiste Jr.: Can you bring me the gun of Rambo?
Yuri Orlov: Part One, Two, or Three?
Andre Baptiste Jr.: I've only seen Part One.

Yuri Orlov: There are two types of tragedies in life. One is not getting what you want, the other is getting it.
Andre Baptiste Sr.: They say that I am the lord of war, but perhaps it is you. Yuri Orlov: I believe it's "warlord."
Andre Baptiste Sr.: Thank you, but I prefer it my way.

legend of zorro

eto pa tlaga

Yuri Orlov: You know who's going to inherit the world? Arms dealers. Because everyone else is too busy killing each other.

Yuri Orlov: Luckily we live in a world where suspicion alone does not constitute a crime.

eto pa

Yuri Orlov: Andy's idea of a joke was to put an Iman and a Naomi in my hotel room in the most AIDS-infected region of the world - where 1 in 4 people is infected - and hundreds of miles from the nearest condom.
Yuri Orlov: They say that "evil prevails when good men fail to act". It should be "evil prevails".
Ava Fontaine: I've failed at everything in life, but I will not fail as a human being.
Simeon Weisz: The problem with gun runners going to war, is that there is no shortage of ammunition.

nic's new flick

brotherly love

meet Yuri Orlov a.k.a. Lord of War

Lord of War (2005)
The first and most
important rule of gun-running is: never get shot with your own
merchandise.
got guns?
Where There's A Will, There's A Weapon.
He Sells
Guns... And He's Making A Killing.

muvee lines 3

batman begins
Batman: It's not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me.
Alfred Pennyworth: Took quite a fall, didn't we, Master Bruce?
Thomas Wayne: And why do we fall?
Thomas Wayne: So we can learn to pick ourselves up.

Rachel Dawes: Deep down you may still be that same great kid you used to be. But it's not who you are underneath, it's what you do that defines you.

Bruce Wayne: It's not who I am underneath, but what I *do* that defines me.

movie lines two

Memorable Quotes from G.I. Jane
1997Master Chief John Urgayle: [quoting "Self-Pity" by D.H. Lawrence] I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself.
Master Chief John Urgayle: Pain is your friend, your ally, it will tell you when you are seriously injured, it will keep you awake and angry, and remind you to finish the job and get the hell home. But you know the best thing about pain?
Lt. Jordan O'Neil: Don't know!
Master Chief John Urgayle: It lets you know you're not dead yet!
.
Master Chief John Urgayle: The ebb and flow of the Atlantic tides, the drift of the continents, the very position of the sun along its ecliptic. THESE are just a FEW of the things I control in my world! Is that clear?
all CRT: Yes, Command Master Chief!

on november 3rd

on the said date I'll be facing the gauntlet...I hope I make it..With God's mercy and guidance..
And all The saints prayers especially those of St. Jude...for my survival..
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet.

birthday

It's my lola mencing's birthday.I thank God for giving me her as my paternal Lola...
She makes me clothes evr since I was little until now.nananahi pa rin siya para sa lahat .para sa lolo ko,mga anak hanggang sa apo..She loves flower and doesn't mind travelling for 3 hrs and more just to buy flowers-orchids,mums,etc...I thank God for giving her another year with us.May He bless her with more birthdays to come.
my lola is sad because she lost her cousin 2wks ago,her best friend and sister at heart..
to nanay mencing hapi birthday.I love you.

hope

"Finish each day and be done with it.
You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in;
forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it
serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old
nonsense."
from hopeful

fix u

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below

When you too in love to let it go

If you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your faceAnd I..

.Tears stream down on your face

I promise you I will learn from the mistakes

Tears stream down your faceAnd I...

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

flat broke

yes, Im broke...mainly because of living beyond my means.
My wanting to eat my piece of cake ahead or immediately than to wait is what got me here......Im supposed to attend class today but woke up late, no water again in my countryhome.kainis.
naubusan p ko ng load...so here I am,blogging over an empty stomach.waiting for niña's reply..

things to remember

fin foint fixed pupils,unequal--damage in fons.MOrfin is drug of choice
pinpoint,fixed pupils,unequal can also b signs of morphine toxicity....

ggb

whew! barely breathing but still alive..debts are ultimately sky high and I dont have any other Idea but to borrow some more..but no one seems to help me,though I understand everybody needs money today.I mean i do not know anybody soooo rich as in filthy rich to help me with my situation.
I want to solve it by myself...with my frends na fwede utangan.cant tell it 2 moder n foder...anyways,
God is always with me,so no fear..
I WILL SURVIVE..
Another thing,my application filing is still pending till the registrar releases my papers.when cud dat b?after zillion years?
SO HELP ME GOD.

will i survive?

I dunno but m still going.....the going gets tougher and tougher..I need to go tougher on the going?
what?!i dont make sense...Im morbidly buried by the tons of debts (im poor)and dunno how to get out.
I need to go through this week with thrice effort,willpower and everything.

Sicut me Deus adjuvet

don' quit

When things
go wrong, as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all
uphill, When the funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile,
but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit, Rest, if you must,
but do not quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns, As every one of us
sometimes learns, And many a failure turns about, When he might have won had he
stuck it out; Don't give up, though the pace seems slow-- You may succeed with
another blow.
Often the goal is nearer thanIt seems to a faint and faltering
man, Often the struggler has given up, When he might have captured the victor's
cup, And he learned too late when the night slipped down, How close he was to
the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out-- The silver tint of
the clouds of doubt, And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near
when it seems so far, So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-- It's when
things seem worst that you must not quit.
--
Anonymous

pariah

"The fact that you are here is evidence that the world needs something you have. your existence proves your purpose, and your purpose creates your potential."

I'm on the edge of falling,of not being able to make it..my papers again were not yet forwarded to where it should be. Another week is wasted...
Will i be able to finish it?would i be able to move on to the nxt level?
would I die without seeing the dawn?
will I be a pariah forever?or not?
time is running out..


Sicut me Deus Adjuvet