failure to launch

i failed my cgfns exams...only scored 349.passing rate is 400..
I had been struggling for some time now.with myself n the things around me.but I believe,someday i'll know why.I keep on learning lessons in life---
humility,commitment.I was'nt really ready for the latter..but anyways when will i be ready?
I guess never.I need to learn to go.go with the flow.go to hell.or wherever.just go.proceed.
I've always looked back that I forgot to look forward.I was busy reflecting,analyzing and rationalizing the things of the past.I have been literally stuck with the past.
i need to let go,I know.But i dunno If I can go on and carry on.
They say it's either u get over it or get out of it..
I got out of it.but I can't get over getting out of it.
and guess what,I want it back..
Hope I get the call again..and try again.
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet.

''together we all pass''

sa jip papuntang waterfront galing kay sto. Niño

to cebu and back

me n tweegy japs on our way back to davao..d day after d-day.march 15...no results yet..

to garci

my beloved pup garci gars..goodbye dawg...huhuhu

girls nyt out

24

24 days to d-day...i dunno.

i really thought i'd be som1 who'll "stick n stay" when shit happens but i am pala da coward hul run away.

well c nic ang d8 ko nung vday...

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art of seduction

LULLABY
Ciel Perlas

Tulog na aking mahal
Takot ay kalimutan
Di kailanman iiwan
Pagmamahal sa'yo ilalaan
Di hahayaang masaktan
Gabi't araw ay babantayan
Hangga't ako ay kailangan
Pangako ko hindi lilisan
Ang araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas rin ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan din
Bukas ay salubungin
Harapin ang umaga
Dala nito'y pag-asaYakapin mo ang ligaya
Pagkat hindi ka na mag-iisa
Ang araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas rin ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan dinBukas ay salubungin
Tahan na...Ang araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas rin ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan din
Bukas ay salubungin
Di na muling luluha pa
Ligaya ay nahanap na...

rostered 1/17/2007

thank God...51 days to go ....D-Day is coming..n m getting ready.
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

do or die

If u dreamed of a dead loved one,does it mean ur gonna die too?
I woke up at 7:30am...I dreamed of my lolo,whom i call tatay...first it was like something was pulling me into a wall.I am in a small room...then I saw my lolo on the bed,Smiling at me.then we hugged and he kissed me in the cheeks..all I said was {"tay,nakita mo na c lawrence?"(he's my 1st pamangkin sa pinsan n tatay's first apo sa tuhod..}
then there was my youngest cousin sai..Tatay kissed them.then I woke up..
What cud this mean?
I've been having dreams about my family these past few days..maybe because i miss them..But this is the first time i ever dreamed of someone over the rainbow..i dunno.
am absent today...i went to St.Jude parish and prayed for tatay..lit candles.maybe I outta go visit him when I go home this weekend..
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

do or die

If u dreamed of a dead loved one,does it mean ur gonna die too?
I woke up at 7:30am...I dreamed of my lolo,whom i call tatay...first it was like something was pulling me into a wall.I am in a small room...then I saw my lolo on the bed,Smiling at me.then we hugged and he kissed me in the cheeks..all I said was {"tay,nakita mo na c lawrence?"(he's my 1st pamangkin sa pinsan n tatay's first apo sa tuhod..}
then there was my youngest cousin sai..Tatay kissed them.then I woke up..
What cud this mean?
I've been having dreams about my family these past few days..maybe because i miss them..But this is the first time i ever dreamed of someone over the rainbow..i dunno.
am absent today...i went to St.Jude parish and prayed for tatay..lit candles.maybe I outta go visit him when I go home this weekend..
Sicut me Deus Adjuvet

still not rostered

it's 56 days to d-day,but I'm still not rostered.....hope I do get Rostered soon..for the march exam..I NEED THAT CHANCE..Sicut me Deus Adjuvet..

Chasing Cars
We'll do it all
Everything On our own
We don't need Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
I don't quite know How
to say How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all
I can see I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world

post partum

had visited sweetot sa hospital.hav'nt seen her since yesterday..post partum mum na sya..nkita ko na c ulrich but pix lng muna.wla pa kc xa room in..Mother n son will be going home this afternoon...

baby's out

yesterday,December21st at 4pm..my best friend,SWEET gave birth to a 2.85
kg healthy baby boy.He will be named Ulrich..I'll be posting his pics
soon...Congrats!

i love him here